Friendship is not a test

Dear friend,

Friendship is not a test,

rather it is a foundation,

Clarity is the best,

and offers forever portion.

Go in and out from a car,

who doesn’t guarantee of future,

only ache precaution of the heart,

Dear Friend,

Today, my heart is confused,

to you who is not obvious,

I hope it comes to at peace.

“God remove this at once”, I prayed,

So I could feel pain no more,

let the world not know,

So I could move on.

Let them try to pull me low,

But I won’t let them prosper.

Throw me all the 0% chances,

still,

friendship is not an experiment.

But a substance to a blooming romance,

ordained story to be unfold someday.

May this disheveled heart be groomed in no time,

Because I would love to love someone who is worth my love.

Living in K-drama world

I’ve watched all kinds of korean dramas may it be suspense, historical, action or rom-com. Whenever I start watching it  I always get hooked to it. I’ve always loved their killer smiles and love team chemistries. I was able to finish three “major-major” top korean dramas recently. For your information, I have always been a Lee Min Ho fan and I have watched most of his dramas (though not yet the City Hunter- I don’t know why). Anyway, since I’ve finished the top 3 dramas for the first quarter of the year. Somehow I dreamed to be one of their leading lady. 

So here it goes,

Every lady wishes to have a guy friend whom you can smirk with, punched on, get mad, and a shoulder to lean on.   Kim Bok Joo’s friend – Joon Hyung – is a friend you can trust and do without worrying your poise and all that. She was a jealous gf when Joon Hyung who is very close to him. Funny it was when they tried to be discreet yet they can’t. Until their friends finally found out. This is a very light teenage story. 

I ‘hoped’ I can be like Kim Bok Joo who lifts a heavy barbel and still maintains a weight limit. Haha

We also go tough situations and even that happens, we also fight for things we know that is rightfully ours even it takes us miles away from home. Our Sim Cheong swam around far places to look for Joon Hae after she erasing the memories they had in Europe. It really broke my heart for what Cheong had to do in order to protect Joon Hae but love wins. Even she had to erase AGAIN his memories due to long stay on earth, Joon Hae were able to write all his spent time with Cheong in a journal. He had to suffer while waiting, looking for answers of all his missing memories but all the while he had them on his journal. Her gift of removing memories took advantage to their enemies but she didn’t succeed on Joon Hae’s. What a relief! 

I ‘hoped’ for Cheong’s gift of removing memories so I could forget some past hurts too. Thank God I don’t have because through my past aches I learned to become a strong woman. But I also wished that I could earn money through tears so it could turn into pearl and sell it. HAHA

The latest drama I’ve watched is Goblin and I finished crying!!!! This story has a lot of twist, there’s friendship, family, a love to conquer, and past-present turns. I’m not sure if all the “reincarnation” is true but it really affected me when Goblin had to suffer all the “waiting” for his Goblin’s bride ONLY to remove the sword of eternity. What a heartbreaking news it was for Eun Tak when she already developed feelings for this handsome Goblin. Nevertheless, as fate is to be unfold, what is already written by God cannot be change. Even after withdrawing the sword from Kim Dhin’s chest. it took Eun Tak years to recover from her unknown cause of her pain. When her memories were erased she looked for answers trying to figure out who was the “him” on her journal. Until, fate moved and Kim Shin appeared again by Eun Tak’s blowed candle. I shed tears when Eun Tak was having distress from her sleep and she called on to Kim Shin. “I am scared that you might leave me again” – Eun Tak. I felt her right there and then. The fear of losing someone you love but missing soul has its own destiny. But Kim Shin didn’t stop pursuing her. When Eun Tak’s time came, it really broke my heart! Most espescially to Kim Shin. He had to wait again for the reincarnation of Eun Tak and grateful that the ending didn’t disappoint me. 

I ‘hope’ I can be like Eun Tak who was so sure of his destined man that she doesn’t have to wait for some other men . I hope that I could only blow a match and my superman would appear right in front of me. I hope. But there’s this real world I’m facing right now which makes me feel more challenged. Waiting is not an easy task but I know everything will be worth the wait just like Kim Shin, Cheong, Joon Hae, Joon Hyung, and Bok Joo did. Because what is yours is already yours.

Love has its own reasons. Love is a decision. Love conquers everthing.

Kamsahamnida, Oppa’s and Unni’s for a yeopo stories. Looking forward to many kdramas. 

His love letter

February 18, 2014
Usually, baking, laundry, cooking, cleaning are my agendas for rest days. But this day is different. I spent time surfing the net, see newsfeeds at Facebook, watch a movie, and think. When I had finished them all, I stopped for a moment. I rested in our living room sofa in an inconvenient position, I began thinking, played a gospel music, closed my eyes, embraced the precious living Book, and started crying…. SomeOne Whose close in my heart become a ‘choice’. Someone who assured me many times that He loves me has become a stranger. From that moment I was reminded of the box office movie, STARTING OVER AGAIN, with a new beginning…. Tears started flowing through my cheeks, here I am commits myself to start over again with the One who loved me first, and here’s His letter to me….

My dearest daughter,
I know It seems I was silent for the past weeks, but I never stopped pursuing you . You may not have recognize the love and faith I have for you but there are just too many things going on your mind, I can’t squeeze in myself. You have tried to put me first but you intended to do what you LIKE. But don’t worry my daughter, my princess, no matter how stubborn you are, I still LOVE you, I really do, not in a different way, but with the SAME love I have showed you 2000 years ago. My darling, do not be condemn by what the world says to you, do not be discourage by their judgements thrown at you, always remember that I have overcome the world. Regarding with your plans, sweetheart, be patient, WAIT patiently my love. Everything is already planned, orchestrated and designed the way I wanted. Your ways are not my ways, your thoughts are not my thoughts . I am proud that you have plans for yourself, for your future, career, which you have presented everything to me… I am honored that you have acknowledged every detail of your desires before me. I really AM my princess, but just do not fret, I have arrange accordingly each into my timeframe. Just be in faith, in every area of your life, have faith in Me. TRUST Me. Here we go my Darling, just always remember, I will always walk with you each day of your life, I love you unconditionally! And I am always 24/7 available, just hoping you have time for Me.

Lovingly yours,
Your Heavenly Father

Starting Over Again

Definitely this movie turned our stomachs up and down, freeze our jaws from laughing and swell our eyes from crying. But eventually at the end of the movie, the one goal remains- The End. No matter what the ending is, you cannot change the END. It was already planned, setup, expected and prepared. Watching this movie didn’t give me a heartbreak, but rather agreed to the whole story or main point.

(Just for the sake of some who haven’t watch this great movie, I won’t spoil the story…) *evil laugh

Ginny, left Marco with no reasons…. Why? That’s for you to find out! Sorry. When she came back, she tries to win Marco, AGAIN.
Here are some lessons I got and that made me say “COME ON!” “That’s right” “True”….

1. Never EVER, and I mean it! EVER… END the relationship without any REASONS or EXPLANATIONS.

Everything has its own reason. Every questions has its answers. Leaving someone you dearly love because of FEAR is not LOVE at all.
Marco- “I deserve an explanation, I deserve an acceptable reason…” –
“In love there is no fear”

2. Leave with CLOSURE and make things CLEAR.

-Ask if you may, ASK if you are READY, ASK if you are confuse, ASK if you want some answers… Remember you have the right to ask!
No matter what the response is and will be, it shouldn’t bother but rather Gives you peace.
“Ang hindi ko lang alam, kung Bakit? Kelan nagsimula? Anong nangyari sating dalawa? But today, I resolved to stop bothering you…”
“May dahilan kung bakit tayo nagkita” Yes, there is! watch the movie so you could know!

3. PSP “Past is Past”

Philippians 3:13 “Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead,”
Let go what you should let go. Stop revolving your world to one subject. Its a big world out there! Go out, learn, EXPLORE! Something better is on hand if you let it …..

4. Never let one thing that will stir your heart to give in to temptation..

I’m sure Marco did know that Ginny might come back and agree to work with him. And I am sure that Marco did know that there might be some instances that they will spend some “alone” together. at first it was for businesses sake, then Ginny’s “assumptions” put her to hurt herself. Marco tried “iwasan ” her, but same Ginny as she was, aggressive and desperate, everything turned to ugly side of the story. Do not rekindle the past if you think it will hurt you. Erase the memories, delete the messages, but learn from it.
Temptation is always there. But it is your CHOICE to RUN away from it!

5. Ladies, never be so AGGRESSIVE and DESPERATE

If you feel something for that guy, KEEP IT, let the men confess it, let them do their part!
“Stop assuming, unless the man stated his intentions. ”
Ginny, boldly confessed her feelings to Marco in front of many people. She did her part too VOCAL AND EXPRESSIVE. We are not designed that way, Its men part to boldly confess their intentions to us.

6. Pride will not make your relationship work, humility does…

Ginny became prideful of what she sees on how Marco becomes. She kept what she thinks on who Marco is to become. Pride destroys everything. Remember that Ginny was vocal and expressive? This time she stopped that kind of attitude, she feared to share her thoughts and feelings to Marco. Accept the person you love, be open, misunderstanding and conflicts will not run out in a relationship. But acceptance and humility should always be part of both parties.

7. Friends has a big part in your life. Treasure them!
We have two different kinds of friends Pro and Anti 🙂 Pro because they just want to indulge you to fantasy or Anti because they know what’s the truth and they want to be honest with you.
“kaibigan kita! and I refuse to watch you kill yourself”
“Nakalaklak ka nanaman ng pagasa, subukan mo kaya lumaklak ng REALIDAD..”
“Working with your Ex is complicated!”
They tell us the reality. They share what they feel. Its either they let you enjoy the fantasy or bring you to reality.

8. BE FORGIVEFUL
Common saying is “to forgive is to forget”. How I love in this movie is it shows how to accept ones mistake, how to forgive with LOVE…. You cannot forgive someone if you still have BITTERNESS in your heart. Ginny became to desperate when she really want Marco back in her life badly. That brought Marco to choose between Patty and Ginny. This is the line that made me amazed how BRAVE AND COURAGEOUS MARCO was…
Ginny: So tulungan mo naman ako ngayon, how do I UNLOVE you?
Marco honestly replied: I really don’t know.. But what I know is I cannot UNLOVE you, I’ll just LOVE YOU BUT IN A DIFFERENT WAY….
That courage! That STRAIGHT-forward answer! harsh but honest! Painful? Yes, but gave both of them PEACE that they needed!

No matter how RIGHT you feel for that person, no matter how HIGH level of infatuation you have for that someone you dearly love, if the timing is WRONG, then its still WRONG. People come and go. We either let them in or go. Accept the mistakes or just keep it. Learn or fail. Be wise or waste it . Either ways, there’s always something better that comes to our lives. Its a matter of how WISE in making the decision. You need courage to confront the reality, confidence to accept the truth. I recommend this movie to all the singles, the beginning and the end has something to take home….

Not a heartbeaking story… REALITY ROMANTIC MOVIES HAS FINALLY COME TO SENSES…. FINALLY! Cheers to Star Cinema production and to the whole team of Starting Over Again.

p.s some lines stated above are not exact so pardon me. 🙂