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I just turned 24 recently last May 19, 2014. Nothing new happened nor anything surprising. Same like ordinary day came by on my birthday. Though there were some few efforts from my loved ones like a sliced cheesecake with candle lit up on my last minute of my birthday which I absolutely appreciate and of course a birthday song. I also received birthday greetings from my friends through texts, personal, and facebooks. I absolutely appreciate my dearest friends who put up an effort just to greet me and letters really close to my heart.

Anyway, another thoughts running through my mind as of this moment which I’m not sure prepared to share it here. But I’ll just share a few close to that details.

I am still waiting. Either I’m waiting productively or unproductively. Am I just wasting my time on something not really coming or am I just passionately taking risk for the sake of “love”? A lot of questions, doubts, hesitations and confusions are going on to my mind. I asked myself if I’m still taking the right path. Is this really what I want? Is this really for me? Am I just going to endure all this without getting in return? Does this deserve all my efforts and time? Is this the time to say goodbye? Many, many interrogative remarks were running through my mind.

I believe the only reason why I choose to persevere because of “love”. But what I’m not sure of if this is still “passion”. Different meaning but something in common= time and effort. We love with effort and time. We passionately do things with TIME and EFFORT. We don’t love without passion, we don’t have passion if we do not love. Physically and emotionally I give time and effort but bodies and minds have its limits. We get tired, exhausted, pressured and burned-out.

I’m tired, exhausted, pressured and burned-out. Yes, physically and emotionally burned-out. Whenever I’m at work, Recently, I’m starting to ask myself “Do I really deserve this? Do I really have to wait more than a year to get promoted? Till when shall I wait?”. More than the career, as the eldest, there were a lot of frustrations and pressures. The desire of helping my parents, supporting my siblings and helping financially to the needs of my parents.

In spite of all those issues and insecurities, I’ve resolved ’em whenever I refocus my goals to JESUS. Spiritually speaking, yes, I’m grounded on my TRUE foundation and I will never be shaken. His love allows me to see this. . . .

Isaiah 40:29-31
“29 He gives strength to those who are tired; to the ones who lack power, he gives renewed energy.
30 Even youths get tired and weary; even strong young men clumsily stumble.
31 But those who wait for the Lord ‘s help find renewed strength; they rise up as if they had eagles’ wings, they run without growing weary, they walk without getting tired.”

Romans 8:28
28 And we know that all things work together for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose,

mahirap but I believe everything happens for a reason. I just need to inspire myself and continue to focus my goal to JESUS. I know that in time, I’ll take the risk of getting out from my “comfort-zone”. And I believe it is sooner.

I know….

I know Love, you have been waiting for me as well.
Do not fret even we’re surrounded with couples.
So stay strong and patient so you won’t be in a hurry.
I know deep inside your heart you are as excited to meet me.
Do not be in a hurry that you might fall to sin.
Stay grounded and firm with your foundation.
I know that you are praying for me earnestly.
I believe that your sweet prayers are one of the reasons why I’m still blogging this.
I am sure that all your desires are heard from above.

In faith and trust, our most-awaited story will surely something worth to share.
Just wait my Dear, God has something for both of us, let’s just trust His perfect time.

WAIT, my Love WAIT…….. He’ll soon show us the guide

pray continuously

Let’s just continue to trust and be in faith everyday 🙂

Let’s continue to put our trust, faith and security to the Creator and Author of our lives.

SOON

Motivation at work

Day in and day out since my grandmother passed away, I’ve decided to stay at home and be with my father who just freshly came abroad. For the second week (If not mistaken), my dad encouraged me to apply and join the job fair held at SM Sta. Rosa. There were opportunities and open doors but few of them responded to my application. Beforehand, hospital has been the desire of my heart. As a nurse, with a little experience from government hospital I know that when I’m inside the hospital I can apply my 4 years skills as a nursing student.

From job fair none of them didn’t pursued me consistently. when my dad went back abroad, I’ve decided not to be on a couch potato, I encouraged myself to push on a non-stop application until I get response from them. Its been my prayer to be accepted in the hospital.

When I tried at San Pedro Doctor’s Hospital, I had the urge of praying for it. I immediately talked to God. After a week, I got a message from SPDH for an interview. With fullness of joy and happiness, I didn’t let it pass by. I was unexpected assign at Emergency Room, one of the place I hated before. (haha)

First day at ER, I was still aloof but my seniors didn’t hesitate to orient me with the protocols I needed to know. So let me go straight to my title. What really motivates me going to work?

1. It’s a hospital.
2. It’s a one ride way from home. Which means a cheaper daily cost of transportation.
3. Emergency. Meaning, you’ll be trained how to manage time and TRIAGE
4. Free meals! 🙂
5. I want to do my best this time (compared to my previous hospital, I didn’t do much)
6. I like my trainers/seniors! They really oriented me!
7. I like “some” approachable doctors. *grin
8. Staff nurses are very nice and approachable.
9. Cases at ER are challenging.
10. My seniors are very good in motivating their co-workers. They know how to uplift a beginner.
11. They are very friendly.
12. Evaluation process. 🙂
13. I love IV insertion to pedia.
14. I’ve got an INSPIRATION :)))) (You need it to maintain the smile on your face!)
16. and most of all, I know that God has plans for me why He put me in this place.

Hopeful and expectant for what He is about to do in my life. Holding on to His promises. This may be painful at first but I know that God is my ultimate comforter and He is not yet done with me. I know that He knows what’s best for me. Totally in surrender and trust in Him. 🙂

P.S Sorry for the wrong grammars and spelling if there are.. 🙂