Thank You for the LOVE

As the year ends, I did some time alone to recall the whole year. I admit that this year has been a challenge for me. Ang daming pagbabago sa sarili ko, I had to change my perspective in life, including principles and beliefs. Kinilala
ko rin sarili ko. My lifestyle changed as well but I can attest God’s faithfulness in my life. From tears to tears, moon and back, front to cover, God showed me His power over my life. Not my plan, but His will to be done.
People come and go as they say. People enter in your life and then suddenly leave with invalid reasons or unexplainable circumstances. Sometimes they leave because that’s the only best choice to express their love for you. I had the most unforgettable events this year, I learned and discovered that I am a “land person” when I started mountain climbing. I finally learned that my top 2 love language are words of affirmation and time. Ang dami ko pang kailangan idiscover sa sarili ko,I just have to continue to get out from my comfort zone.

During the leaders group Christmas party, we had this activity of back tracking the year’s highlights. I got the chance to scan and review my posts from Facebook and Instagram even the tweets from Twitter. I found myself in awe and tears how God has been really gracious to me. I couldn’t be here without God’s unconditional love, I don’t wanna sound Holy or religious but this is just the truth. God has been really faithful in my life.

I thought I couldn’t get up but He made me realized that He won’t put me in a situation if I cannot handle it. Kaya nasabi ko rin, “Siguro, nakita rin ni God na strong ako. Kaya He allowed these to happen.” For the first three months I kept on thinking “What did I do to deserve this?” “Why did this even happen to me? Of all people, why me?” I know I do not have the right to ask God my “Why’s” because who am I to ask the King of kings and the Lord of lords. It’s a shame for me to ask, but I just came to Him with open arms and humility in my heart. God hasn’t really answered it exactly, (and I stopped asking)He doesn’t have to but right now, I see the BIGGER picture. It is about the obedience, leaning on to Him even it means of letting go of the things or people in life. At the end of the day it will always and should be ABOUT HIM.

Through obedience I saw God graciously move in our midst. He restores what was lost. He gives us hope and makes us realize that above all things He is in control. I am now in tears as I type this, maybe not with what I hoped but the God I serve is the God of restoration. People may see me broken or “bitter”, they may even tag my past a joke but what makes me stand firm is that God will always be behind my story because He is the author of my life. I won’t mind what they will say or even how they insult me. Fixing my eyes on Jesus. 😁

Many times when I get back from step one, “denial” then end my day with “acceptance” which only depicts that life can be so much fun and complicated at the same time. It also shows that we are limited, mapapagod ka rin. Iba si God magsulat, talagang unpredictable and exciting. Either you’ll cry or laugh. How do I describe 2015? RAIN. Isa pa na nadiscover ko sa sarili ko, I am now a pluviophile. Rain, not only it gives you a bed weather or a gloomy feeling but there is something about the rain that makes you feel happy and in love. I don’t know but that will best describe my 2015. I am expectant to what is ahead of me, lalo na sa 2016. Well I am always expectant to New Year’s naman. I remember 2015 countdown, sabi ko kay God, “ Excited ako Lord.” Of course, sa buhay hindi mawawala ang drama but as much as possible iniiwasan ko yan, sayang lang ang luha, kung alam ko naman matatapos din ang drama. Unfortunately, things don’t come the way we plan it but definitely there is always a solution with every challenges.

God picked me up again and embraced me for the nth time. I never felt secured, alive and more assured in His presence. He showed me that in every situation that I am out of control, He is in control. That I am limited and He is limitless. He wants me decrease and Him increase in my life. He wants ME and Yes, I am His.

I am ending my 2015 with a joy in my heart. I am welcoming 2016 with open arms and welcoming 2015 to my 2016. Yes, not a goodbye but hello again! Thank you for being part of my 2015 and looking forward you on my 2016.

Ps. Thank you for a fun-filled 2015

(Sorry na, sorry na sa wrong grammars ko. Haha)

Abba Father

“how great is your love for me
that you gave up your son for me
now i am alive and free
father i love you
father i love you

your love made a way for me
into me you see
you love every part of me
father you love me
father you love me

oh, the love of my father
is deeper than any love i know
oh, the grace that he shows me
his love overwhelming
this i know
the love of my father
the love of my father
the love of my father
the love of my father

abba father
your love is never-ending
there’s no other love like yours
in your presence
my heart is overflowing
father i am yours”

This song drives me to worship God. Not only because I love the rhythm and music itself but rather, the lyrics describes the perfect personality of the Almighty God. While listening to this song, I stood up and put my feet to dance. Such an awesome time with the One.

I have resolved to surrender everything to God. That before anything else, He should always be my FIRST. I should always seek His wisdom. Hear His still small voice. Obey what He says. Response like Jesus and most espescially to love even certain circumstances are unloving just like what Jesus did.

Each day has its different story, either fun-filled or blue day. But whatever the situation is, I must always decrease. It is not about me. The glory does not belong to me. Its not about the person who will receive or hear your response. But rather it is for Jesus’ glory. Less of me and more of Him. It is really funny that we get tired of our repititive unresolved problems but what’s funnier is that at the end of it, sorrow turns to joy because we learned that each problems has its own solutions.

What we usually do when we are in trouble we sometimes kneel down,put our hands together, wipe the tears from our eyes, go to some quiet place, scream out loud what’s holding you inside and reflect. These are just some ways how we contemplate our complicated life. Life is pretty boring without challenges. We may get tired but I believe that God won’t give us situations that we cannot handle. He believes in us and He hopes that we also believe in His mighty power.

I am just in awe how He surprisingly meet all of my needs in an inexplicable ways. I just can’t contain the joy He gave me. This joy is just really an overflow of His everlasting love for me. And I am forever grateful for His grace and trusting me with His treasures here on earth. ❤️

True that it is all about Jesus. My desire for this year not only to have a deeper relationship with Jesus but also respond with love and peace just like Jesus. 💕

“Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. “John 14:27

“to proclaim the year of the LORD’s favor, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all who mourn; “Isaiah 61:2

“and might reconcile us both to God in one body through the cross, thereby killing the hostility. “Ephesians 2:16

A warmth welcome to 2013

Last year, my siblings and I went to Mall of Asia to celebrate New Year’s eve. A free watch of fireworks near Manila Bay was all worth it. Now that God has answered our prayers for a family car, we have considered to go to Mall of Asia again for the coming of 2013. People are everywhere, car parking was full and fancy restaurants are all loaded, if not loaded it’s close. Nevertheless,  since we have a long wait we found the Chowking open so we bought our dinner even in a long line.

My siblings and I ate inside the car and we had our cute small conversation with each other while eating. Then I asked them “what was your best moment for the year 2012?” My brother said, “When I was given a chance to study.” while my sister in return, “When we were complete family..” Then I hastily said “No copy paste!” then my youngest brother quickly said, “When God answered our prayer to have a car.”  I finally included mine, “When I graduated and passed my NLE board exam… then I had a work..” Then we proceeded on munching our food, suddenly my youngest brother asked us, “What was your worst moment but saw God’s hands at work?” My brother shared his, “My P.E subject was fixed.” Then my sister said, “Its a bit a long story but its kind of a friend-lover rivalry… and I was involve but thank God, it was fix!” Then I remembered mine, “When I was a private duty nurse… you know the story!” My youngest brother can’t remember his but God is always at work. Every time I see their faith, I always reflect on mine too. I often judge them by how they respond on things and how they act on each circumstances but God is so faithful to consider our faith and be so loving every day.

I admit I have a strong foundation because I came from a solid ground and that is through my family. I thank God for giving them to me. 2012 has been great! I will never forget the year where God has almost answered and heard my faith goals! He has been so faithful to me and my family. From none to abundance, and vice versa. Whatever our status we still hold on to our faith. Since 2011 I started this thanksgiving corporate prayer before the clock hits 12:00 mid night every year with my siblings. It feels great to run out of time because of many things to thank for.

After the thanksgiving prayer, the media hosted the event started a 5 minutes warm up  fireworks. So we decided to go and look for a perfect spot to enjoy it. After the 5 minutes fireworks, my siblings and I bought Mint Choco Chip ice cream! My favorite! 🙂

The countdown starts at 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, then I whispered a thankful prayer to God.. 2, 1 – Happy New Year! Welcome 2013!!! We took a picture under the fireworks and wishing mom and dad is also with us… Still praise God! 🙂

Then we immediately went inside the car, people started walking, driving their car, getting their pictures and finds their way home. The road was so free, even the expressway tollgate! Happy! HAHA.

I am more expectant of God than on what He is about to do with my life this year. To Set apart this year for Him only. 

Welcome 2013! thank You Lord for 2012 🙂

May we never fail to see God’s hand in every circumstances we have. May it seem so good and bad, God is always at work. Remember that He always loves us. God bless you all!

Joshua 3:5 “Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do amazing things among you.”

Psalm 48:14 “For this God is our God for ever and ever; he will be our guide even to the end.”

Closed doors

Every day it hast been a challenge for me. Each day I have to make sure I don’t hurt anybody . All those things matters. My friend, family and special someone matters to me. Their reaction, emotions and response on my every little actions to them. I have finally realized that people reaction towards my action is now my last concern. My first concern now is God’s opinion. He really matters so big when I get to hurt Him, it is really a BIG deal for me. I can’t have a good sleep, I always contemplate on my last action if it really pleased Him or not. That’s why there is this saying “think before you do it”, I’m still on the process of resisting what my heart tells me to do so even it means of “not today” or “now or never”. God is surely has been slapping my face back and forth. He’s been waiting for me to respond in such a way that it will only please, glorify and honor Him.

Now that I’ve come to the point of closing doors, its time for me to boost my relationship with my One and Only God. I am more expectant with God for the year 2013. I am excited because I believe God will bring me to different places and opportunities that will make me happy and make our relationship grow deeper.

2012 has been really a roller coaster ride, its been a year since I admitted that its not bringing me anywhere. Its only disobedience. Its only pride. So before the year ends, I definitely wanted to become someone God wanted me to be. More of molding and shaping of my character- building of character. Fear has been holding me back. What are those fears? I fear that I will not get to see them often if I only focus on what He wants me to do. I fear that God will take my loved ones so far away from me. I fear that no one will like me if I followed Him. But I realized God gave them to me. The people I cherish so much. I believe God is teaching me to go out from my comfort zone and I believe God is also preparing my loved ones. So for now, I have decided for the coming years, it will only be about us- God and me. Closing doors for courtship. Closing doors for any emotions that will pull me away from God. 

I’m sure when God finds me ready, He will automatically open my heart for that someone He’s been saving for me. I’m not in a hurry I believe God is also preparing that man and besides, I still have to enjoy my single hood. But I admit, I still need prayers. Prayers that will help me not give in to temptations. I need your faith that even in tough times I’ll be able to withstand it through Christ. Right now, what I know is I’m not going to entertain any man. He’ll know when to lay down if its the right time from God and if he is the one since I am devoting myself for God this coming year. So, I guess ‘do not disturb’ sign will do. God and I will have this moment. I believe God’s timing is perfect and it will come like I’ve never waited. I am really excited for this! 🙂

 

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I will never fo…

I will never forget to acknowledge the real source of all my countless blessings in life. – Me

The moment I receive happiness, I always go back to the real source of all it. The real owner. My Lord. My God. My Provider. And when I am reminded, I always say “thank You Abba” These wouldn’t be possible without You in it. All the speechless and overwhelming moments in life came to life and able.

Lee Min Ho’s first visit in the Philippines

Well, don’t push me with the ‘idolatry’, I’m still a fan of a good person and well one of the most handsome man on the planet. This has finally come to my mind to start a blog of my once in a lifetime experience of seeing one of my most favorite Korean actor (I hope not just once…) When I heard that Lee Min Ho was given a privilege to be the newest global bench setter, my initial reaction was “Weh? Seriously? He will come and visit his fans too.” Then I said a little prayer to God. I wasn’t expecting that much that I am really going to see him, the security rest in God alone. Its okay with me if I’m not going to see him but the sighs were there. Then one of my Ate posted a link to one of her members, also a fan of Lee Min ho, I commented also on that link and shared all my feelings. Then her member, Ate Ruth, PMed me and asked me if “Are you going to do whatever it takes to attend his visit?” And I assertively answered her, “Yes Ate, most willing to attend.” It took her one to two days to reply with my reaction. After two days, she finally got me with an answer that “Shek, I got you invite for Lee Min Ho’s visit. Lower box lang tayo.” Then my initial reaction was, of course, speechless! That moment I really screamed that my siblings were annoyed and shocked what happened to me. I was like “God, thank you so much for this blessing!” then I thank Ate Ruth for it. That was the most impossible thing that could happen to me because I am not hat person that would spend a peso just for an idol, and if it cost too much! i believe God made it a way for me to unwind and forget all the happenings in the past and it was also one of my realization to really appreciate God’s simplest ways of His blessings.

Its been three weeks of waiting since I received that gift. The long wait has finally over. November 16, 2012 this is the day the Lord has made. Heart is everywhere. My heart was pumping so fast and my status in FB was all about Lee Min Ho. So, Ate Ruth and her friends went to Cubao early to change the invite to ticket, the event will start at 7pm but we have to be early because of the line. I arrived at Cubao around 3:00pm the line was all over the Araneta Coliseum. Oh by the way, it was also my first time to enter the Coliseum literally! HAHA. So see how God move and answer our prayers? Nothing is impossible! 🙂

While waiting I tried to just tour my beloved tambay place when I was still a Trinitian for two years in college- Gateway. Well there are places that hasn’t change. I just really missed the place. I bought Burger Kings’s burger and hershey sundae. So yummy!

Then the long wait is finally over indeed. The long line subsides every 10minutes. What do we expect? They didn’t started at the exact time given. The crowd started to shout “7 na! 7 na! 7 na!” and “Lee Min Ho! Lee Min Ho!” while I was shouting “Ilabas na! Ilabas na!” (Take him out! take him out!). The technical kept on flashing the beauty poses of Lee Min Ho on the screen while we were all waiting for him. The MC, Hanz, tries to entertain us by being a joker and make us all laugh even at the most intense moment of our lives that we really want to see him!!! Then there is the countdown and video of Lee Min Ho coming on stage. After the countdown, guess what? NO LEE MIN HO! There were some intermission number first, like some impersonators dances and sang wondergirls, 2nu1’s and Oppa Gangnam style. Then after all the intermission number Sam Oh went out and called out Lee Min Ho’s on stage with matching fire and fog. All the ladies were screaming the crowd was wild!!! REALLY! Even I became so wild! 🙂

All in all, even I wasn’t in the patron its okay, to see him in a natural and gentleman way is enough for me. The screen was very helpful, saw his perfect-killer smile. He was interviewed, we suggested Adobo for his dinner. We just kept on screaming and shouting even while he was talking! He even had the guts to have the concern for his fans at the patron standing if they are doing okay because they don’t look okay. 🙂 After the one of the most unforgettable event in my life, I find it so sad, I was in teary eyes when he was waving goodbye to us. He manage to wave at our side. He tried his best to really entertain us with his good looking stature.

I found good in goodbyes though

here’s his photo with us on the screen. HUHU. T.T

this is the lady that gave me the chance to see my long time crush! 🙂

But of course, I thank Ate Ruth for giving me that opportunity to see one my most favorite korean actor and to just see his perfect-killer smile. I thanked God the whole time. Really! All the impossibilities came possible because of the “doubted” prayers.  He was able to touch the heart of Ate Ruth and consider me to get an invite! I am just really blessed that walking by faith is indeed walking with the Creator of EVERYTHING. After the event, the huge christmas tree at Gateway was lighted and it was very beautiful 😀

I will never forget to acknowledge the real source of my countless blessings in my life 🙂 Thank You Abba for everything

P.S PHOTOS are mine 😀 personally taken by me.

Not on anybody or anything

Most of the people nowadays are alive when they talk about LOVE! Yes, LOVE! Even me, personally and honestly, I wiggle whenever I hear a LOVE story…But just a thought and should be an application in our daily living. 🙂

You don’t need a guy just to get closer to God. You need YOURSELF to realize that with or without SOMEBODY, YOUR HEART and YOUR WHOLE BEING should be FOR God alone. And not on somebody or anybody. You need to see yourself in your life that kind of relationship you’ve been longing, that ETERNAL Relationship that no one can equal to. He’s been knocking on your door, yet you are not willing to open. How can you have that relationship if you don’t want to welcome the Loving Father of all time?!

We are unique in all our ways whether we like it or not. May kanya kanya tayong kagandahan at kasamaan! Emphasize on KASAMAAN(bad side) since we are still HUMAN yet we should not allow it to dominant our lives. Since we have said the words ” Jesus is my Lord and Savior” let’s not take it so lightly. Don’t take it like a whisper in the wind that fades. Be a steward of His creation. Be a good example Titus 2:7. Life is too short, in fact,  where were you for the last couple of years? where were you 20years ago? Where were you if you didn’t allow Him to enter your life!?! You wouldn’t be there if He is not present in your life.

All the insecurities, doubts, jealousy, pride, hatred, arrogance, immorality, and all the WHAT IF’s are all tactics of the opponent. Because he already knows that he is defeated, he gets insecure and tries to destroy the image and reputation of our minds. It all starts on one look then there’s second then there’s a verbal “Ang cute niya… sana…” blah blah blah… 😀 We allow the defeated to cripple those kinds of thoughts in our minds and becomes a stronghold. Yet in Romans8:31-34 it is said we are more than conquerors and who can be against us?! HOLD on to it! Have firm foundation! do not allow this things to mingle in our minds. SAY NO immediately!Titus 2:12

Remember that we should get all the security and affirmation from the Best Lover of all time 🙂 JESUS!

We should not be afraid of our past, present and future because you believe in yourself that YOUR life is in GOOD HANDS of the Almighty God. Jer.29:11 and Heb.13:5

He should be the water of the thirsty souls like us.

He should be the sun of the dried plants like us.

He should be the oxygen, whenever you are having difficulty of breathing, you will always remember you need Him to ease the pain.

He should be the wheels of your car, a reminder that He is in control of your life.

He should be the electricty, a reminder that God brings life in our boring life.

He should be the BULLS EYE (main goal) in your life, a reminder that HE should be the aim for the rest of your life.

He should be the note or chord of your song, a reminder even out of tune He will always be in tune for us.

He should be the bandage of our wounds, a reminder that He covers up all our problems.

He should be our EVERYTHING, because He gave His everything to us for our salvation 🙂 

Our 24/7 should be His’ and not ours.. Our time, our availability really matters to God. If we can manage to invest our time on anything or with somebody, we should also invest most of the time to the Most High.

😀

Neither on anybody nor anything but with God alone will I get my affirmation, security and assurance of a perfect relationship! 🙂

I can say that I am secured and not in rush. 🙂

Seek Him first Matt. 6:33

He is my Vine and I am His branch

😀 senxa na sa wrong grammars 🙂 hihi

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