In loving memory of our Ortho Doctor

In my 10 months of stay in San Pedro Doctor’s Hospital, doctor Musngi has been noisy, cranky, and fun to be with. He is one of the makulit and maingay, to patients and to us as well. He entertains his patients, kahit paulit ulit ang tanong niya, he tries his best to read the chart using the negatoscope light, he takes a nap while waiting for a non-HMO patient, and he texts even during E.R is toxic, and he stays calm even the crowd is panicking.

I would like to share his 10 most unforgettable traits:

1. He never forgets to smile whenever he gets in to E.R
2. He is a generous doctor even his pockets says no.
3. To some, his “green” jokes are lessons to learn.
4. He gives us a lifetime lessons.
5. He teases us in our own personalities.
6. Every girl is beautiful in his eyes. (kahit sarcasm)
7. He is too supportive with what’s in you. (he even supports your business)
8. He’s a father and brother to all. (a listener and a talker)
9. Ramdam mo yung “bad words” pag naiinis siya
10. He is proud to share whatever makes him happy. (kahit ano pa yan, proud yan!)

I may not have known him for a long time but his stay during clinic hours speaks who he is. He’s like a father to all of us. He reminds us how life is, education, practicality and perseverance despite of being alone and zero-in-pocket. That’s why when my headnurse told me the sudden bad news, I was shaking, nervous, and scared. All his alive memories flashed back immediately. I paused for minute, inhaled deeply and exhaled forcely. A sudden lost of someone close to our heart is heartbreaking but his memory remains alive in us.

Everything is temporary, you only have one life to live so make the most out of it. God has His perfect plans in each of us, we may not understand it how and why, but surely God has His own ways of explanation in the right time. I know that everything happens for a reason.

So long Dr. Musngi, I know you are in the good hands of our Heavenly Father. thank you for the laughter and for being our “eldest” doctor. We will miss you.

Southwoods Unihealth …..

As of today, I’m here at Mcdonalds southwoods. I came from Southwoods Unihealth to pass my edited resume. Before I went there, I was so dread nervous. I am wearing a corporate attire just in case of on the spot interview. The hospital is still on going construction with men workers. I haven’t seen one lady or any woman inside the construction site. I was assisted by gentlemen security guards (I suppose they should because its part of their job). The security guard assisted me all the way up to the third floor, instructing the workers to stop as I walk towards their way. Actually the building is not yet fixed but I guess they are almost half way finish. When I got to the room where I should pass my resume, the security guard wished me luck (Oh by thew ay, even the tricycle driver wished me luck as I rode off his vehicle). So I passed my papers to the so-called Mr. Alvin, and had a relief when I handled it to him. Asked him when they are going to start and if they have applicants already. He said yes and maybe late in June is their target.

Last year, as I see that building build it was already included of my prayer. I see it as my future hospital experience but not as a volunteer nurse rather as Staff Nurse in a special area. Every time I go home, when I was at the backride in tricycle, I was already praying for that hospital whispering these positive and full of faith words as I point and look to the not-yet finish building ” I’ll be one of your E.R staff nurse or a Staff nurse!”. I was asking it to God since last year, praying for a tertiary hospital and get employed this time.

Nothing is impossible to God who has given us these blessings. He knows where we are going to use our gifts for His glory. I just can’t believe that every time I whine and complain at my work, I still can’t give up this job, like what Sharon said on her movie Caregiver “I care about my job, I care about you, Sir”. I wholeheartedly care about my job even it takes no salary or just “thank you” in return.

It takes trust, hope, perseverance and faith to get to the place you’ve dreamed of. Love leads us to stir the unwavering passion to push hard and live the different circumstances. Experience teaches us to do better and help us throughout consequences.

Fears won’t stop me from pursuing and chasing my dreams. By the help of my greatest Backer in life, God, will surely make all things possible. He will surely be true to His promises.

I know….

I know Love, you have been waiting for me as well.
Do not fret even we’re surrounded with couples.
So stay strong and patient so you won’t be in a hurry.
I know deep inside your heart you are as excited to meet me.
Do not be in a hurry that you might fall to sin.
Stay grounded and firm with your foundation.
I know that you are praying for me earnestly.
I believe that your sweet prayers are one of the reasons why I’m still blogging this.
I am sure that all your desires are heard from above.

In faith and trust, our most-awaited story will surely something worth to share.
Just wait my Dear, God has something for both of us, let’s just trust His perfect time.

WAIT, my Love WAIT…….. He’ll soon show us the guide

pray continuously

Let’s just continue to trust and be in faith everyday 🙂

Let’s continue to put our trust, faith and security to the Creator and Author of our lives.

SOON

Thoughts 103

Here’s the continuations of my random thoughts. As I promised from my previous blog, I shared it there regarding the song “I won’t say I’m in love” from the Hercules Disney movie. Now, I just want to elaborate further why its lyrics caught my attention. Here’s the full lyrics.

I won’t say I’m in love

If there’s a prize for rotten judgment
I guess, I’ve already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That’s ancient history, been there, done that

Who do you think you’re kiddin’?
He’s the earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden

Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, you can’t conceal it
We know how you feel and
Who you’re thinking of?

No chance, no way
I won’t say it, no, no
You swoon, you sigh
Why deny it? Uh, oh

It’s too cliche
I won’t say I’m in love

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming, get a grip, girl
Unless you’re dying to cry your heart out, oh

You keep on denying
Who you are and how you’re feeling?
Baby, we’re not buying
Hon, we saw you hit the ceiling

Face it like a grown up
When you gonna own up
That you got, got, got it bad

No chance, no way
I won’t say it, no, no
Give up, give in
Check the grin you’re in love

This scene won’t play
I won’t say I’m in love
You’re doin’ flips read our lips
You’re in love

You’re way off base
I won’t say it
Get off my case
I won’t say it

Girl, don’t be proud
It’s okay, you’re in love
Ooh At least out loud
I won’t say I’m in love

Songwriters
BERT KALMAR, HARRY RUBY

The animated woman who portrayed the leading lady of Hercules has no guts of telling her true feelings for him. (Base on the lyrics) This simply shows that she has higher percentage of self control level which leads me to admiring her. I hope that ladies are also like her, (Though I know its just an animated movie) and it doesn’t even show the modern courtship there. Nowadays, women are very aggressive and they usually do the first move. Unfortunately, courting the men leads to heartbreak and shame issues. As a woman, I also felt like the urge of “wanting something so bad” but I learned that when we wait patiently its more rewarding than having something you want so bad instantly.

From that music video there are group of ladies teasing and whispering her that she’s in love. But the lady kept on pushing and teaching herself from not telling her true feelings for Hercules.

“No chance, no way
I won’t say it, no, no”

As I speak and remind this for myself as well, this is also my prayer to every ladies that you shouldn’t be on that fast forward or fast track. WAIT AND ENJOY the season you are in right now. Never ever tell your feelings to a man, or don’t make the first move and give him the hints that you like him. Let him do his job Sweetheart! Let him man up! So, if you feel you can’t control it anymore, look back and reread the two letters NO. So stay princess like.

DO NOT MAKE YOURSELF CHEAP BY YOUR UNCONTROLLED EMOTION FOR A GUY

“Bakit ayaw mo sakanya?”

I often hear these questions from my friends most of them from work. I have to admit that instead of to be in a commitment I’d rather still choose being single. Why? Well, some personal reasons. I think some of my closest friends can understand and knows the reasons behind. (Not sharing this to be proud) most of the men I encounter from my experience and friends are torpe and should I say incapable of meeting our needs. I’m not sure if this applies to all relationships but I’m sure women has their own presumptions on each circumstances.

I realize that when the woman doesn’t like the man, the courtship has no beginning. That’s why men should have courage to ASK first if the woman will allow him to court her. Men should not just effort without clearing up the intentions, women will go equivocally on the unstated-status. So men, please don’t just make us guess if your actions are already part of your “ligaw” , STATE it!

If the man stated his intentions then women should start PRAYING. Ask God’s guidance and direction, and of course to continuously guard both of your hearts. Anyway, in my own personal opinion, I discovered that even you don’t like the guy, if the effort speaks it all, AYAW mo parin, unless nakuha ni guy yung “kiliti” mo ( Sorry for the term) then maybe the lady will RE-considers it. Am I right ladies? I’m not sure if it applies to everyone but that’s what I’ve noticed eh. That’s why the prayer is vital. It should be a breath that you can’t live without. Mahirap na yung gagawa ka ng decision that you will regret in the end.

Here’s the common conversation I had with my friend

Her: Bakit ayaw mo sakanya?
Me: Eh! Basta! (straight forward answer)
Her: Bakit? Gwapo naman siya, may trabaho naman,
Me: hmmmmm, hindi mo ko maiintindihan, hehehe, Basta its a NO….
Her: You like someone else?
Me: No, its just that we cannot connect with each other, we’re just two different people and I can’t jive into his world. Though I get his love language, pero hindi talaga eh. Strong personality ko, eh siya? Medyo emotional te! (lol)
Her: Grabe, give him time…. Malay mo db?
Me: (talagang ipinipilit ni friend) Ahh, yeah, let’s see, but its a no, when I say no, let’s stay friends… 🙂 Ok na yun para hindi kumplikado. . .

And I ended our conversation with a smile. I just can’t try to fit in to someone else’s world when that person doesn’t want to get involve in my world. Its somehow complicated but the give and take is there, understanding and getting to know is present.

My cousins and aunts they usually get surprise and looks troubled when I answer them I’m still single. But it doesn’t bother me because I’m young, I will definitely meet my prince charming at God’s perfect time. Maskinikilig ako sa mga gagawin Niya for us in the future and that our love story is worth to tell. Kaya pag tinatanong ako kung bakit wala pa akong boyfriend, naiirita ako, not to the sense of I DON’T HAVE A BOYFRIEND but to them na “why? what’s wrong? I’m still young!”. But most of the time SMILE is my reply to their redundant question and “Darating din tayo jan…”

Happy and joyfully waiting….. 🙂

Thoughts 102

Before I go to sleep tonight, I just want to share my thoughts for the whole day. Something is bothering me actually, but it doesn’t matter anymore because I have resolved it a while ago.

As I was scanning the Facebook newsfeeds, I saw a music video link of “I won’t say I’m in love, Hercules”. This Disney animated movie caught my attention when I was a child because of this half “macho” man and half greek god. Well the song paid off when the lady controlled from not telling her feelings to Hercules (Sorry, I forgot the lady’s name).

For me to control and keep emotions (Especially for the women) is such a brave and courageous act. I admit I am a very expressive and bold woman, but from experiences I learn to keep it to myself because I know in some circumstances “to not tell isn’t a loss ” . Anyway, let’s change course. . . . . . .

After doing some heavy household chores, I find time to talk to Abba Father. It was such a great feeling to finally have a great time with the One whom I longed for so many days! And so, I told Him I’m sorry that I haven’t given Him time and that I’m not putting Him first in all my agendas. I also shared how I’m doing these days, with the people around me, and also my heart.

Relationships are very important factor in life. They help you become a better person or some one you never wanted to become. Healthy or unhealthy, relationships are vital. As of now, this is my concern, how can I become someone good for my loved ones? By not pleasing them but through expressing their love language naturally. How? When? Where and why? Questions are starting to pop out, and yet answers are instantly presented.

TIME and courage . Fears. Yes, fears are holding me back to reach out to their needs. Fear of rejection. Fear of unbelief and many more. These were presented beforehand when answers were showed. Nauna yung takot bago pa dumating yung sagot But I realized that I shouldn’t be, because its a big world out there waiting for me to bare it all. Share, talk, laugh out loud, get involve and have friends for a lifetime and more! I always say no to something outside of my comfort zone but learning to get out from the box is such a huge relief. A joy! Risky? Yes, but today I am challenging myself to get out from my comfort zone and get more excited to what lies ahead. That is why one of my attitude these days is to be EXPECTANT. As I continue to put my faith and trust in the Lord, TIME AND COURAGE definitely will follow.

So what’s with the music video got to do with this? I’ll share it to my next Thoughts 103 🙂

The Wedding

March 1, 2014 I was invited to my Mentors wedding. By the way, its my first time to attend a Christian garden wedding. First time to go in San Pablo, Laguna as well and first time to feel the joy when someone close to your heart walks down the aisle wearing her dream WHITE gown. Everything from that day was a first time. Like I said the wedding was a success, the program, food, and most especially the weather because it was cooperative, hot though, at least it didn’t rain. Anyway here are some of my captured moments before and during the wedding…. Hope you like it!

Casa San Pablo!

there’s this very creative hanged bottles along the bridge…

the beautiful place!

with the Groom and Bride’s intials!

feeling all the moments for this place!

this beautifully made entrance door of the bride! 🙂 So Vintage!

the set up place for the Bride and Groom wedding ceremony!

hanged pictures of them with LOVE ….

the Bride’s aisle! those petals were just beautiful!

and now, my leader, my mentor, there she is! stunning! Beautiful! with emotions….

indeed! Favored! no hints of raindrops….

the dinning set up!

the table set up!

the cupcakes made by the Groom!

the cake and the wine!

these flowers so lovely!

the story! Glad they included this piece of my creativity… so touch!

I’m a cupcake lover, I super love this shot!

there are wriiten. quotes on each tables

plus! the wedding was fun because of great people!

with my vintage outfit!

and lastly, with my bestfriends wackiness! proud of this lady, expecting great and wonderful years with her as friends ….

So there you go, my first time experience from a wedding 🙂 I hope one day I’ll be sharing mine as well… SOON …. 🙂 and all glory belongs to God! Great experience indeed, even I had separation anxiety from that place, because it was sooooooo beautiful! 🙂 My prayer for the couple is that may Jesus always be the center of their marriage 🙂