I in the mirror

Hesitantly, I look at myself in the mirror. I look at that person and deep inside she’s broken and still in a healing process. I look at her with shamefully disgusted personality. I see this lady full of mysteries and secrets. However, she believes that no secrets cannot be revealed. She has support system, few but real, who will remind her identity and encourage her that we live because there is a purpose.

Indeed there is a purpose. Whenever I look back to the past, I always find myself to the lost woods or stare the endless ceiling. I somehow realize that PAST has contributed a lot of who I am today and there comes a time when I just cannot let go of it. But, yes a big BUT… We have to move on… I love new things and I am excited to explore and discover to conquer and learn about something in this new season.

Going back, how I see myself today? I am really disgusted. A lot of times when we fight for what is right or stand firm with convictions which ends up to failure. I just discovered my weakness recently hence the readon why I still fall on the same trap all over again. And it just makes me sad that whenever I am “almost” in that situation, there’s this urge of “test/challenge” but naaaaah… I say, know your weakness and never attempt to check if you have overcome it. Run away immediately from temptation. Do you get what I mean? 

We are human with limited strength and capacity. Since we are human let us not abuse that limited strength to conquer our fears or “test”. No matter what that can be, never ever stay in a place where we can be vulnerable to make mistakes.

Honestly, I do not know how to redeem myself back but God’s grace is sufficient for my weaknesses. Sometimes my thoughts tell me: “you do not deserve His grace” “you are unworthy” “you kept on saying sorry but you keep doing same old sins” and sometimes “you are not beautiful!” There’s a truth to those thoughts and that make God more visible in my life. 

I look at myself and I see a woman who doesn’t deserve all the love and precious breath in this world but someOne gave it anyway. I cannot see the fast healing but I am willing for a change and enter new season in life.

Starting Over Again

Definitely this movie turned our stomachs up and down, freeze our jaws from laughing and swell our eyes from crying. But eventually at the end of the movie, the one goal remains- The End. No matter what the ending is, you cannot change the END. It was already planned, setup, expected and prepared. Watching this movie didn’t give me a heartbreak, but rather agreed to the whole story or main point.

(Just for the sake of some who haven’t watch this great movie, I won’t spoil the story…) *evil laugh

Ginny, left Marco with no reasons…. Why? That’s for you to find out! Sorry. When she came back, she tries to win Marco, AGAIN.
Here are some lessons I got and that made me say “COME ON!” “That’s right” “True”….

1. Never EVER, and I mean it! EVER… END the relationship without any REASONS or EXPLANATIONS.

Everything has its own reason. Every questions has its answers. Leaving someone you dearly love because of FEAR is not LOVE at all.
Marco- “I deserve an explanation, I deserve an acceptable reason…” –
“In love there is no fear”

2. Leave with CLOSURE and make things CLEAR.

-Ask if you may, ASK if you are READY, ASK if you are confuse, ASK if you want some answers… Remember you have the right to ask!
No matter what the response is and will be, it shouldn’t bother but rather Gives you peace.
“Ang hindi ko lang alam, kung Bakit? Kelan nagsimula? Anong nangyari sating dalawa? But today, I resolved to stop bothering you…”
“May dahilan kung bakit tayo nagkita” Yes, there is! watch the movie so you could know!

3. PSP “Past is Past”

Philippians 3:13 “Brothers and sisters, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead,”
Let go what you should let go. Stop revolving your world to one subject. Its a big world out there! Go out, learn, EXPLORE! Something better is on hand if you let it …..

4. Never let one thing that will stir your heart to give in to temptation..

I’m sure Marco did know that Ginny might come back and agree to work with him. And I am sure that Marco did know that there might be some instances that they will spend some “alone” together. at first it was for businesses sake, then Ginny’s “assumptions” put her to hurt herself. Marco tried “iwasan ” her, but same Ginny as she was, aggressive and desperate, everything turned to ugly side of the story. Do not rekindle the past if you think it will hurt you. Erase the memories, delete the messages, but learn from it.
Temptation is always there. But it is your CHOICE to RUN away from it!

5. Ladies, never be so AGGRESSIVE and DESPERATE

If you feel something for that guy, KEEP IT, let the men confess it, let them do their part!
“Stop assuming, unless the man stated his intentions. ”
Ginny, boldly confessed her feelings to Marco in front of many people. She did her part too VOCAL AND EXPRESSIVE. We are not designed that way, Its men part to boldly confess their intentions to us.

6. Pride will not make your relationship work, humility does…

Ginny became prideful of what she sees on how Marco becomes. She kept what she thinks on who Marco is to become. Pride destroys everything. Remember that Ginny was vocal and expressive? This time she stopped that kind of attitude, she feared to share her thoughts and feelings to Marco. Accept the person you love, be open, misunderstanding and conflicts will not run out in a relationship. But acceptance and humility should always be part of both parties.

7. Friends has a big part in your life. Treasure them!
We have two different kinds of friends Pro and Anti 🙂 Pro because they just want to indulge you to fantasy or Anti because they know what’s the truth and they want to be honest with you.
“kaibigan kita! and I refuse to watch you kill yourself”
“Nakalaklak ka nanaman ng pagasa, subukan mo kaya lumaklak ng REALIDAD..”
“Working with your Ex is complicated!”
They tell us the reality. They share what they feel. Its either they let you enjoy the fantasy or bring you to reality.

8. BE FORGIVEFUL
Common saying is “to forgive is to forget”. How I love in this movie is it shows how to accept ones mistake, how to forgive with LOVE…. You cannot forgive someone if you still have BITTERNESS in your heart. Ginny became to desperate when she really want Marco back in her life badly. That brought Marco to choose between Patty and Ginny. This is the line that made me amazed how BRAVE AND COURAGEOUS MARCO was…
Ginny: So tulungan mo naman ako ngayon, how do I UNLOVE you?
Marco honestly replied: I really don’t know.. But what I know is I cannot UNLOVE you, I’ll just LOVE YOU BUT IN A DIFFERENT WAY….
That courage! That STRAIGHT-forward answer! harsh but honest! Painful? Yes, but gave both of them PEACE that they needed!

No matter how RIGHT you feel for that person, no matter how HIGH level of infatuation you have for that someone you dearly love, if the timing is WRONG, then its still WRONG. People come and go. We either let them in or go. Accept the mistakes or just keep it. Learn or fail. Be wise or waste it . Either ways, there’s always something better that comes to our lives. Its a matter of how WISE in making the decision. You need courage to confront the reality, confidence to accept the truth. I recommend this movie to all the singles, the beginning and the end has something to take home….

Not a heartbeaking story… REALITY ROMANTIC MOVIES HAS FINALLY COME TO SENSES…. FINALLY! Cheers to Star Cinema production and to the whole team of Starting Over Again.

p.s some lines stated above are not exact so pardon me. 🙂

The Lord of the Rings Trilogy

The Lord of the Rings Trilogy

I have watched this movie back in my high school days. Actually I really didn’t understand the story. I wasn’t a fan of it. My friends and family brought my mind to curiosity at that time. What’s with the ring? That each of the character are falling from its circular gold form. Last Sunday, our pastor mentioned the Lord of the Rings, it encouraged me to watch it all over again. It turned out unexpectedly pretty exciting. I realized that the story has a deep meaning. Its not only about the thin look alike monster “My precious”  was all about or not only about the ring, it was a mix good lessons and real life stories resemblance. I just want to share with you my favorite characters in the movie that moved me into tears and affected me in some ways.

First of all,

Gandalf the Grey

This Wizard who was an old friend of Bilbo Baggins, who was also a co-founder of the precious Ring of power, is a righteous character that all he thinks about is for the betterment of the many, which is good. He looked after the four hobbits, fought for them, guided and led them throughout the journey. He was like a huge guardian to them.

Aragorn

The last heir of Gordon, who was in love with a beautiful immortal Elf, Arwen, who chose to be mortal to be with him. Nevertheless, Aragorn did not stop him to go to the quest for the sake of the destruction of the Ring of Power but it also did not stop him to love Arwen even in the distance shores.

 

 

 

 

 

Sam

Among the four hobbits in the movie, I find Sam really courageous and brave. Without him Mr. Frodo would not make it to the Fire of Mordon. Sam helped Mr. Frodo to continue the journey despite of their physical weakness, (lack of food and water) he motivated Mr. Frodo to finish the restless journey. Without Sam, Mr. Frodo could’ve been dead that time. But because he remained faithful to his promise, Sam was able to accomplish the mission with Mr. Frodo.

 

 

 

Eowyn

This mighty woman warrior, she reminds me of a Woman in the Bible – Rahab, she also fought for her loved ones. During the time of Eowyn, women are not allowed to fight, they have their duty at home, but for her her duty is not only bound at home, it bounds even outside the kingdom. Behind her beauty and elegance gestures lies a warrior with full of courage and bravery. She even saved the king of Rohan. She knew her identity, she knew she isn’t allowed to join the war, she knew that she is only bound inside the kingdom, but she didn’t remained that way. Why? Because she knows she can do bigger than staying inside the kingdom.

 

The last part of the movie made me cry. It moved me in tears, not only moved by it but burst me into tears. Mr. Frodo and Gandalf have to leave because their mission has been accomplished and that is to save the Shire, the Hobbits town. It moved me in tears that throughout the “restless” journey, Sam never had single thought of leaving Mr. Frodo even it risks his life. I was in tears because even many lives were lost; in the end they were still victorious. It affected me in some ways and touched my heart. Aragorn was appointed King and I like his speech, “The victory is not only for one man, but to also to all of you….”. Many random soldiers were involved in the war, they have their own family, they chose to fight for them, to secure them, even it means of losing their own lives. There’s always pain but when we learn that even in the midst of it, as long as we do it for all good, it will always be bearable.

Like Jonathan and David in the bible, they love each other like a brother. They stood for each other. They never leave by their side. Their friendship last forever till death do they part. The characters were almost hopeless and faithless. The enemies have given them many signs of deception of Mr. Frodo’s death. But they did not give in to it, they never stopped unless they found Sam and Mr. Frodo’s body. It was love that kept them going even it seems hopeless and the one they hold on to is not by their side, they still continued. 1 Corinthians 13:13 “And now these three remains: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love.” The foundation of it all is LOVE.

I want to relate this to what Jesus did for us, an innocent man has to die for all of us, but it did not stop there, He gave us the great commission to every area of the world and He will be with us through the end of this age. Jesus is not the only one who shared the good news, because He is the good news Himself. Paul, Peter, John and many more has to suffer from all persecution and discriminations all over the world but with the fellowship of one faith, it never stopped them. Painful? Yes, but they know to whom they do their passion. Its all for the glory of God. If the fellowship of the Ring’s main purpose is for the destruction of the ring to Mordon. Our purpose here on earth is to not sit down but to share the salvation we have by grace through faith in Christ Jesus. That would be a “worht-it” journey. Ultimately, more than the movie’s story, Jesus is still one epic story. 

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