How I keep my feelings secretly?

I won’t deny that I like someone. He got my “kiliti” even at first I badly hate him. Though he doesn’t know because this kind of feeling is just an appreciation of his gentleman, caring and humorous characteristics. So you might be curious how I keep it so pure and light secretly?

There are at least 5 reasons why I keep it so light and secret…

1. I have no reason to show it at all.
– My admiration is just temporary, it may boost for a moment or none at all.

2. I’m a lady and its a risk if I show it how much I admire him.
– Ladies don’t tell their feelings unless a man stated his own feelings for her.

3. Its just a crush, not a big deal
– a crush. A token of appreciation for someone who can make you smile.

4. I get “kilig” inside my room.
– I share my feelings through writing and reminisces the time spent with him.

5. I don’t share it to someone even to my closest friend.
– Even your closest friends can ruin the natural companionship with the guy by teasing you. So I’d rather not share it to anyone.

That’s it! 5 reasons…. 🙂

So you might also ask me what are my major turn on for a guy…

1. First, this might sound religous thing but this is just for me… Its a major turn on if the man I like has a relationship with God not merely attending church service but gets an intimate conversation with Abba.

2. More than that he should have sense of humour by not bashing me. He still knows how to be gentle and careful with his words.

3. He knows how to lead. He’s a leader. One who can keep kids quiet and listen to him.

4. Someone who wants to spends time. I love quality time and stories that will not bore me.

5. I love gifts, any kinds of gifts I treasure them. A generous man is one of the characteristics that can make me smile.

Some of my major turn ons for a guy!

Thoughts 103

Here’s the continuations of my random thoughts. As I promised from my previous blog, I shared it there regarding the song “I won’t say I’m in love” from the Hercules Disney movie. Now, I just want to elaborate further why its lyrics caught my attention. Here’s the full lyrics.

I won’t say I’m in love

If there’s a prize for rotten judgment
I guess, I’ve already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That’s ancient history, been there, done that

Who do you think you’re kiddin’?
He’s the earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden

Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, you can’t conceal it
We know how you feel and
Who you’re thinking of?

No chance, no way
I won’t say it, no, no
You swoon, you sigh
Why deny it? Uh, oh

It’s too cliche
I won’t say I’m in love

I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming, get a grip, girl
Unless you’re dying to cry your heart out, oh

You keep on denying
Who you are and how you’re feeling?
Baby, we’re not buying
Hon, we saw you hit the ceiling

Face it like a grown up
When you gonna own up
That you got, got, got it bad

No chance, no way
I won’t say it, no, no
Give up, give in
Check the grin you’re in love

This scene won’t play
I won’t say I’m in love
You’re doin’ flips read our lips
You’re in love

You’re way off base
I won’t say it
Get off my case
I won’t say it

Girl, don’t be proud
It’s okay, you’re in love
Ooh At least out loud
I won’t say I’m in love

Songwriters
BERT KALMAR, HARRY RUBY

The animated woman who portrayed the leading lady of Hercules has no guts of telling her true feelings for him. (Base on the lyrics) This simply shows that she has higher percentage of self control level which leads me to admiring her. I hope that ladies are also like her, (Though I know its just an animated movie) and it doesn’t even show the modern courtship there. Nowadays, women are very aggressive and they usually do the first move. Unfortunately, courting the men leads to heartbreak and shame issues. As a woman, I also felt like the urge of “wanting something so bad” but I learned that when we wait patiently its more rewarding than having something you want so bad instantly.

From that music video there are group of ladies teasing and whispering her that she’s in love. But the lady kept on pushing and teaching herself from not telling her true feelings for Hercules.

“No chance, no way
I won’t say it, no, no”

As I speak and remind this for myself as well, this is also my prayer to every ladies that you shouldn’t be on that fast forward or fast track. WAIT AND ENJOY the season you are in right now. Never ever tell your feelings to a man, or don’t make the first move and give him the hints that you like him. Let him do his job Sweetheart! Let him man up! So, if you feel you can’t control it anymore, look back and reread the two letters NO. So stay princess like.

DO NOT MAKE YOURSELF CHEAP BY YOUR UNCONTROLLED EMOTION FOR A GUY

HOPE

Is there something you’ve been wanting for so long that until now you don’t have it? Perhaps career, food, spouse or children? We will not appreciate the WAITING if we are trying to get what we want instantly. Its a long process, like in pursuing you’re chosen career, you start from the basic, “create an impressive and comprehensive RESUME” and “APPLY” or maybe food, you buy the ingredients; spouse and children, it is a long process, MATAIMTIM na PRAYER yan, its a decision and it takes a huge step of being “READY” on that area. But what God wants for us? TRUST. We need to learn to PATIENTLY and CONFIDENTLY wait and hope for something we do not yet have. TRUST! It takes a lot of TRUST, while trusting God we WAIT for it… I believe God has something greater for all of us as long as we fix our eyes on Him Believe and be in faith ALWAYS…

TRUST

Romans 15:13 The complete trust in God will produce complete JOY in our life. Whatever emptiness you feel God is the Only One who can fill you. Good noon! TRUST God that He can reach and give whatever pleases Him.

Your love every morning….

photo taken by me 🙂 and venue near our place 🙂 edited by me too 🙂

A warmth welcome to 2013

Last year, my siblings and I went to Mall of Asia to celebrate New Year’s eve. A free watch of fireworks near Manila Bay was all worth it. Now that God has answered our prayers for a family car, we have considered to go to Mall of Asia again for the coming of 2013. People are everywhere, car parking was full and fancy restaurants are all loaded, if not loaded it’s close. Nevertheless,  since we have a long wait we found the Chowking open so we bought our dinner even in a long line.

My siblings and I ate inside the car and we had our cute small conversation with each other while eating. Then I asked them “what was your best moment for the year 2012?” My brother said, “When I was given a chance to study.” while my sister in return, “When we were complete family..” Then I hastily said “No copy paste!” then my youngest brother quickly said, “When God answered our prayer to have a car.”  I finally included mine, “When I graduated and passed my NLE board exam… then I had a work..” Then we proceeded on munching our food, suddenly my youngest brother asked us, “What was your worst moment but saw God’s hands at work?” My brother shared his, “My P.E subject was fixed.” Then my sister said, “Its a bit a long story but its kind of a friend-lover rivalry… and I was involve but thank God, it was fix!” Then I remembered mine, “When I was a private duty nurse… you know the story!” My youngest brother can’t remember his but God is always at work. Every time I see their faith, I always reflect on mine too. I often judge them by how they respond on things and how they act on each circumstances but God is so faithful to consider our faith and be so loving every day.

I admit I have a strong foundation because I came from a solid ground and that is through my family. I thank God for giving them to me. 2012 has been great! I will never forget the year where God has almost answered and heard my faith goals! He has been so faithful to me and my family. From none to abundance, and vice versa. Whatever our status we still hold on to our faith. Since 2011 I started this thanksgiving corporate prayer before the clock hits 12:00 mid night every year with my siblings. It feels great to run out of time because of many things to thank for.

After the thanksgiving prayer, the media hosted the event started a 5 minutes warm up  fireworks. So we decided to go and look for a perfect spot to enjoy it. After the 5 minutes fireworks, my siblings and I bought Mint Choco Chip ice cream! My favorite! 🙂

The countdown starts at 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, then I whispered a thankful prayer to God.. 2, 1 – Happy New Year! Welcome 2013!!! We took a picture under the fireworks and wishing mom and dad is also with us… Still praise God! 🙂

Then we immediately went inside the car, people started walking, driving their car, getting their pictures and finds their way home. The road was so free, even the expressway tollgate! Happy! HAHA.

I am more expectant of God than on what He is about to do with my life this year. To Set apart this year for Him only. 

Welcome 2013! thank You Lord for 2012 🙂

May we never fail to see God’s hand in every circumstances we have. May it seem so good and bad, God is always at work. Remember that He always loves us. God bless you all!

Joshua 3:5 “Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do amazing things among you.”

Psalm 48:14 “For this God is our God for ever and ever; he will be our guide even to the end.”

Why evening is my favorite of the day . . .

There  are many reasons why I love the evening. 

God created the heaven and the earth. He created the darkness and light in the sky. Light gives us hope. Light in the dark even gives us hope to pursue the tomorrow. I appreciate God’s creation in a deeper way when I get the opportunity to glance and gaze upon its beauty. What is the “its'” ? God’s creation. In a long tiring day whenever I get to see the night sky, I believe whenever I see the stars and moon, He tells me, “My strength is your strength, my daughter. Don’t become weary in doing good and righteous. I am here! I am your very great reward!” Those are His words that struck in my heart that keeps me going on my daily basis. Him! His very own words that makes me go from strength to strength. His face that shines every morning and still bright in the evening. His unconditional love and joy for me is unfathomable. I don’t deserve it but He still gives it wholeheartedly, without a doubt!

Here are some of my reasons:

1. As I said earlier, light gives us hope. For me, it really is and inspires me to continue the tomorrow

2. I just really love to see the stars while walking alone. Darkness doesn’t give me fear but only joy even in a lonesome night

3. I enjoy singing christian songs while walking in the evening alone

4. I get to have a 10 minutes talk with God

5.  I love the silence while grasshoppers do their own song

6.I get to see the shiny stars and say a little thanksgiving to God for its beautiful creatures.

Well those are just some of my reasons. The moments I get with God. It is indeed my favorite of the day. Still hoping to see more of God’s majestic creations through the galaxy 🙂 Yet it doesn’t stop there, God gives us so many reasons to enjoy the day even not in the evening. So enjoy the day with the Lord. Remember that God has His own reasons why such things happen. It simply because He loves us. 

 

The Majesty Himself never fails to leave me in awe reverence. The Majesty of all times and the Creator of the Universe never fail to amaze me. Looking forward for more….

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If you want to check out my other blog regarding this subject, here’s the link. Would love to hear from you too,  https://prayerworks19.wordpress.com/2012/10/05/54/

Closed doors

Every day it hast been a challenge for me. Each day I have to make sure I don’t hurt anybody . All those things matters. My friend, family and special someone matters to me. Their reaction, emotions and response on my every little actions to them. I have finally realized that people reaction towards my action is now my last concern. My first concern now is God’s opinion. He really matters so big when I get to hurt Him, it is really a BIG deal for me. I can’t have a good sleep, I always contemplate on my last action if it really pleased Him or not. That’s why there is this saying “think before you do it”, I’m still on the process of resisting what my heart tells me to do so even it means of “not today” or “now or never”. God is surely has been slapping my face back and forth. He’s been waiting for me to respond in such a way that it will only please, glorify and honor Him.

Now that I’ve come to the point of closing doors, its time for me to boost my relationship with my One and Only God. I am more expectant with God for the year 2013. I am excited because I believe God will bring me to different places and opportunities that will make me happy and make our relationship grow deeper.

2012 has been really a roller coaster ride, its been a year since I admitted that its not bringing me anywhere. Its only disobedience. Its only pride. So before the year ends, I definitely wanted to become someone God wanted me to be. More of molding and shaping of my character- building of character. Fear has been holding me back. What are those fears? I fear that I will not get to see them often if I only focus on what He wants me to do. I fear that God will take my loved ones so far away from me. I fear that no one will like me if I followed Him. But I realized God gave them to me. The people I cherish so much. I believe God is teaching me to go out from my comfort zone and I believe God is also preparing my loved ones. So for now, I have decided for the coming years, it will only be about us- God and me. Closing doors for courtship. Closing doors for any emotions that will pull me away from God. 

I’m sure when God finds me ready, He will automatically open my heart for that someone He’s been saving for me. I’m not in a hurry I believe God is also preparing that man and besides, I still have to enjoy my single hood. But I admit, I still need prayers. Prayers that will help me not give in to temptations. I need your faith that even in tough times I’ll be able to withstand it through Christ. Right now, what I know is I’m not going to entertain any man. He’ll know when to lay down if its the right time from God and if he is the one since I am devoting myself for God this coming year. So, I guess ‘do not disturb’ sign will do. God and I will have this moment. I believe God’s timing is perfect and it will come like I’ve never waited. I am really excited for this! 🙂

 

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Insecurities

Why did I write this? Because I was also insecure of everything but now I know who I am… and one reason too is I was inspired by a writer  😀 Hope this will help you somehow..

When you look at the other person, trying to drag them down, that is being insecure…

When you are trying to get the attention of EVERYONE, that is being insecure.

When you wear super duper mini skirts make the boys’ look at you in a lustful way, that is being insecure.

When you compare your partner/husband to some “hot”/handsome guys, then you are being insecure..

When you want others thing and wish you were in their place that is AGAIN being INSECURE…

When you are trying to “humble” yourself in front of many guests, you want everyone to sympathize with you, that is being INSECURE..

When you make yourself “perfect” in make-up but not in your natural look, that is being INSECURE…

If you do not love yourself, then you will never stop feeling insecure.

If you do not know how to forgive yourself from wrong doings and pride is holding you back then you wouldn’t find security.

If you find happiness and joy through clothes, money, hollywood stars or fashion then you will always feel EMPTY because they are just temporary.. And hollywood star doesn’t even know you!

If you find security on things and people then you will always find yourself alone in your bed feeling lonely over and over again..

If you are trying to please men, well, sorry honey, you’ll never get everyone pleased…

If you do not know your identity, then you will always go back to your old self…

and when things go wrong there will come to point that you’ll blame yourself for being such a mistake on earth…

BUT …

IF ONLY, you know WHO you are in the EYES of the Creator,

you will always find strength to rise up even when you stumble,

you will always find peace, even the world is dragging you down.

you will always find comfort, even you do not have someone to talk to anymore.

you will always find yourself BEAUTIFUL no matter what other people say about you…

you will always know you are VALUED because your security is not in men but in God alone…

and because you know that you are created next to the image of the Creator..

You know you’re identity.. You know where to put your security, trust, hope and faith…

and that is through CHRIST.. Who died for you and me 2000 years ago.. Rose after three days for our salvation and fulfillment of the word.. And since Jesus is holy, DEATH COULD NOT HOLD HIM DOWN… He is alive and if you are willing to welcome Him then you’ll encounter more of Him …

You are the most precious creation He has on earth more than anything… So don’t you ever dare to question who loves you or who will ever love me? Because He first loved us 🙂 

 

 We love each other because he loved us first. 1 John 4:19

 

“As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love.” John 15:9

 

And remember before we were born He already knows you, He has already laid down His plans for us…

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” Jeremiah 29:11

 

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,…” Jeremiah 1:5

 

I also want to share that God’s plan for us not really to abandon us, He will never leave us, it is His promise, (Hebrews 13:5)

One of my favorite reminder God has for me is this : “Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:2

Good! PLEASING! and PERFECT will — we may never understand how we feel for ourselves, we may never understand why we look like this, we may never comprehend these verses, but one thing I am sure of – – HIS will for us is better than our will… Ours are just a speck of dust, but His? Is as wide as the universe, as big as He is! 🙂 I cannot imagine! But that’s the truth! He loves you and me! 🙂 Ok?

I hope that you will not also trust the trending fashion, I’m not saying that wear pajamas wherever you go, that is absurd, but we should know how to dress ourselves as modest as possible 😀 Especially ladies, let’s not crave the eyes of the men looking at our legs.. Let’s make ourselves holy and pure before our future spouse and God 🙂

 

“Don’t be concerned about the outward beauty of fancy hairstyles, expensive jewelry, or beautiful clothes.You should clothe yourselves instead with the beauty that comes from within, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is so precious to God. ” 1 Peter 3:3-4

 

Desire more to have a gentle and quiet spirit.. 😀

Let us put our security, trust, hope and faith in God alone and not in men 🙂

Life is not easy but it is still worth it…

You will all understand these if YOU really have relationship with Jesus 🙂

I want end this with a verse:

Psalm 139:13-18

13 For you created my inmost being;    you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;  your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you    when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.

16 Your eyes saw my unformed body;all the days ordained for me were written in your book  before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to me are your thoughts,[a] God!  How vast is the sum of them!

18 Were I to count them,  they would outnumber the grains of sand—    when I awake, I am still with you.

I hope that this helped you somehow.. 🙂 But I also hope you found the meaning of who you really are in God 🙂

I just can’t believe I wrote this… 🙂

Hope you also understood my grammar 🙂 Thanks anyway, and feel free to share this…

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#spreadLove

It’s not my lost

It’s not my lost if I haven’t agreed to your opinion.

It’s not my lost if I did not join you for supper.

It’s not my lost if I cannot come to dinner.

It’s not my lost if I supposedly treat you.

It’s not my lost if I should have offered my chocolate.

It’s not my lost if you are early and I am late.

It’s not my lost if you are not used to my changes,

It’s not my lost if I haven’t responding to any of your emails,

It’s not my lost if my feelings for you fail.

It’s not my lost if I don’t have any communication with you at all,

It’s not my lost if all of a sudden I would not recognize you anymore

For all the ‘YES’ when we were together, I should’ve said NO.

For all the dates, I should’ve said NO.

Yet I considered your emotions, I thought I might hurt you,

Yet a friend asked me, “Has he considered yours?”

I thank God because I thought I have lost but instead I gained a lot,

I gained tender-loving-care of my Abba Father.

But overall, I did not regret all that happened to us,

Because it was God’s plan for me to realize that there are lots of things I needed to surrender.

God’s faithfulness remains upon His sons and daughters forever and ever

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