Heart at Rest

Here I am, walking along these streets. Giving myself a “spa massage” (metaphoricaly). From lies, joys and blue moments I tried to keep myself fair and just for the sake of holding into something which I dearly love. But it’s not giving me joy anymore, it has become “obligation” instead. Its almost 6:30 pm and I want to flashback all the memories I had with the people who helped me become someone better.

Last night, with new friends, I had a divine appointment. You see, I’m a Christian, not only by title but also in relational concept. I have a relationship with Jesus. My season is always WAITING. In any aspect, WAITING has been my season. But I believe that part of my waiting is also “preparation”. God is helping me to be prepared in whatever may come my way. Nature, his beautiful creation, tells me that I am worth it, I am deserving, I am valued, I am loved, I am beautiful through the winds, trees, clear skies and cheerful strangers.

God is someOne who loves surprises. One thing that really made my last nights bonding was “Seek God first. He is preparing something best for you. You don’t have it now, maybe because God is still preparing and molding you to handle some things.” Which I agreed to. I just listened to them. Nodded. And felt their testimonies in their lives. But little did I know, for a minute, God is the One speaking to me through them. I am deeply blessed that I didn’t say no (which at first I felt scared because I don’t even know them). Although I knew it already, it becomes a redundant reminder to me which I neglect to embrace it. But its all about wisdom, sensitivity and trust in God.

Gusto ko umiyak kagabi, empathize with them and tell them how blessed I am hearing their changed lives. Their humble heart encouraged me to push through. Just keep doing what glorifies God. Let go of the things that hinders me from growing. And from then on, it gave me strength, confidence and assurance that I should really get out from my box.

And 1 Peter 3:3-4
“Your beauty should not come from outward adornment,such as braided hair and thewearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a GENTLE and QUIET SPIRIT.”

The gentle, quiet spirit. TRUST. FAITH. HOPE. Yes, we need these in order to be strong. We need these to be prepared. We need these to have the consistent assurance that God knows best. Hearts at rest.

Motivation at work

Day in and day out since my grandmother passed away, I’ve decided to stay at home and be with my father who just freshly came abroad. For the second week (If not mistaken), my dad encouraged me to apply and join the job fair held at SM Sta. Rosa. There were opportunities and open doors but few of them responded to my application. Beforehand, hospital has been the desire of my heart. As a nurse, with a little experience from government hospital I know that when I’m inside the hospital I can apply my 4 years skills as a nursing student.

From job fair none of them didn’t pursued me consistently. when my dad went back abroad, I’ve decided not to be on a couch potato, I encouraged myself to push on a non-stop application until I get response from them. Its been my prayer to be accepted in the hospital.

When I tried at San Pedro Doctor’s Hospital, I had the urge of praying for it. I immediately talked to God. After a week, I got a message from SPDH for an interview. With fullness of joy and happiness, I didn’t let it pass by. I was unexpected assign at Emergency Room, one of the place I hated before. (haha)

First day at ER, I was still aloof but my seniors didn’t hesitate to orient me with the protocols I needed to know. So let me go straight to my title. What really motivates me going to work?

1. It’s a hospital.
2. It’s a one ride way from home. Which means a cheaper daily cost of transportation.
3. Emergency. Meaning, you’ll be trained how to manage time and TRIAGE
4. Free meals! 🙂
5. I want to do my best this time (compared to my previous hospital, I didn’t do much)
6. I like my trainers/seniors! They really oriented me!
7. I like “some” approachable doctors. *grin
8. Staff nurses are very nice and approachable.
9. Cases at ER are challenging.
10. My seniors are very good in motivating their co-workers. They know how to uplift a beginner.
11. They are very friendly.
12. Evaluation process. 🙂
13. I love IV insertion to pedia.
14. I’ve got an INSPIRATION :)))) (You need it to maintain the smile on your face!)
16. and most of all, I know that God has plans for me why He put me in this place.

Hopeful and expectant for what He is about to do in my life. Holding on to His promises. This may be painful at first but I know that God is my ultimate comforter and He is not yet done with me. I know that He knows what’s best for me. Totally in surrender and trust in Him. 🙂

P.S Sorry for the wrong grammars and spelling if there are.. 🙂