Heart at Rest

Here I am, walking along these streets. Giving myself a “spa massage” (metaphoricaly). From lies, joys and blue moments I tried to keep myself fair and just for the sake of holding into something which I dearly love. But it’s not giving me joy anymore, it has become “obligation” instead. Its almost 6:30 pm and I want to flashback all the memories I had with the people who helped me become someone better.

Last night, with new friends, I had a divine appointment. You see, I’m a Christian, not only by title but also in relational concept. I have a relationship with Jesus. My season is always WAITING. In any aspect, WAITING has been my season. But I believe that part of my waiting is also “preparation”. God is helping me to be prepared in whatever may come my way. Nature, his beautiful creation, tells me that I am worth it, I am deserving, I am valued, I am loved, I am beautiful through the winds, trees, clear skies and cheerful strangers.

God is someOne who loves surprises. One thing that really made my last nights bonding was “Seek God first. He is preparing something best for you. You don’t have it now, maybe because God is still preparing and molding you to handle some things.” Which I agreed to. I just listened to them. Nodded. And felt their testimonies in their lives. But little did I know, for a minute, God is the One speaking to me through them. I am deeply blessed that I didn’t say no (which at first I felt scared because I don’t even know them). Although I knew it already, it becomes a redundant reminder to me which I neglect to embrace it. But its all about wisdom, sensitivity and trust in God.

Gusto ko umiyak kagabi, empathize with them and tell them how blessed I am hearing their changed lives. Their humble heart encouraged me to push through. Just keep doing what glorifies God. Let go of the things that hinders me from growing. And from then on, it gave me strength, confidence and assurance that I should really get out from my box.

And 1 Peter 3:3-4
“Your beauty should not come from outward adornment,such as braided hair and thewearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a GENTLE and QUIET SPIRIT.”

The gentle, quiet spirit. TRUST. FAITH. HOPE. Yes, we need these in order to be strong. We need these to be prepared. We need these to have the consistent assurance that God knows best. Hearts at rest.

Everyday is “Valentine”

Before January ends, people are already preparing for something special occasion for the coming month – Valentine! Or if not Chinese New Year! I can’t say I’m not a fan of Valentines because I was once in love with it (when I was in a relationship). Love is always in the air. May it be February or not, people still love to love. Before the February arrived, I didn’t prepare for anything because like any other special days I give myself my own reward. 

Last week, my sister was admitted at the hospital because of Dengue Fever Syndrome and praise God for He heard our cry and prayers. She is now discharged and completely okay from decreasing platelet. February 14, 2013 we have decided to just do our things. We went to Salon and dyed our hairs. A gift from a stress relief from a four days 24 hours “bantay” of my lovely patient. She’s my Valentines date that day. I really enjoyed it.

But the day is more than that, I believe the reason why I don’t celebrate Valentines only on February 14 because everyday has been Valentines with the One who loved me first. I’m pretty sure all the confidence and love comes from above who unconditionally loved me so dearly.

Like any other ladies, I also love chocolates and flowers and know for the mean time it can give me joy and “kilig” but I looked after the person who was hanged on the cross 2000 years ago and lives today. I thought with or without roses and Ferrero chocolates I am more than happy since the day I accepted Jesus as my Savior for the rest of my life.

Allowing Him be the driver of my life built my confidence that in lack or full God will provide both my wants and needs according to His needs. I may not have a date in a luxurious restaurant at least I have the King and Creator of ALL things. People fail us but He will never. 

I thank Abba for not giving me flowers and chocolates for my eternal life because those fade but instead He gave His only Son, Jesus, who lives today, tomorrow and forever.

 

 

Everyday is a love day because I look upon the perfect Lover of my life.

We loved because He first loved us.( 1 John 4:19 )

For God so love the world that He gave His Begotten Son that whoever believes in Him will never perish but have everlasting life.( John 3:16 )