Forgiveness is a gift

I’ve been thinking lately that somehow I felt used by some so-called “friends”. Friends who said they would stay. Friends who used to call you when they have problems and make you feel special because they tell you their darkest secrets. Friends who would text you, “Where are you?” but to my unresponsive instinct they will favorably unconsider your presence because you’ll find out that they’re with their “other” friends already.

You see, I do not have that “bunch of friends” that would stick through thick and thin but I have “few” friends who would gear up and listen attentively to all my whining unreasonable assumptions based from my own judgmental thoughts. Those were just few. Where are the others? Ayun, masayang nalilimutan ako at hinaharap ang kasalukuyan kahit wala ang presensiya ko. To be honest, I am mad. They didn’t even dare to ask how I was doing? And they would just forget all the fun memories that we had. But I won’t let my emotions, this emotion, to prevail!

“Forgiveness is a gift” my resident doctor repeatedly shared as I tell some of my insights in life. I had to go through acceptance before I go to the finished line. I had to accept that fact that these friends of mine will not call me because they are happy (which is good!) even without me. Well, I am just saying that those were the days and I am on my season of expanding my horizon and contentedly accept the fact that this is how my life goes on.

How I received forgiveness? By a genuine encounter with Christ and not with people. I saw how I can be selfish at ALL times and I look at people how they move in the pace of life selfishly. I am always reminded by the FACT that PEOPLE WILL FAIL US but God will never do the same. As I have laid my foundation to the Rock of my salvation He let me see through my whole being by giving me the full access of sonship in His Kingdom. He convinced me my true identity, worth and value. Whenever I get reminded by that I was always put in the position of surrender. Because of that I will always be forever grateful that even I only have “few” people to trust and treasure, I know that in Him I will always find security and peace.

And you asked if I have forgiven them? 100% YES. friendship are not meant to depend on each other. Sometimes there are seasons. A change of heart either to stay or let go. A friendship worth your time and sometimes an immediate action of letting go. Wherever they are, I AM HAPPY FOR THEM. As long as I live, my time, effort, and heart will be available to them but don’t abused me, I’ll know if you are using me to fill that reserved chair which apparently not meant for me. So help me God.

So, forgiveness is a gift. It is either you accept it or not.

 

Heart at Rest

Here I am, walking along these streets. Giving myself a “spa massage” (metaphoricaly). From lies, joys and blue moments I tried to keep myself fair and just for the sake of holding into something which I dearly love. But it’s not giving me joy anymore, it has become “obligation” instead. Its almost 6:30 pm and I want to flashback all the memories I had with the people who helped me become someone better.

Last night, with new friends, I had a divine appointment. You see, I’m a Christian, not only by title but also in relational concept. I have a relationship with Jesus. My season is always WAITING. In any aspect, WAITING has been my season. But I believe that part of my waiting is also “preparation”. God is helping me to be prepared in whatever may come my way. Nature, his beautiful creation, tells me that I am worth it, I am deserving, I am valued, I am loved, I am beautiful through the winds, trees, clear skies and cheerful strangers.

God is someOne who loves surprises. One thing that really made my last nights bonding was “Seek God first. He is preparing something best for you. You don’t have it now, maybe because God is still preparing and molding you to handle some things.” Which I agreed to. I just listened to them. Nodded. And felt their testimonies in their lives. But little did I know, for a minute, God is the One speaking to me through them. I am deeply blessed that I didn’t say no (which at first I felt scared because I don’t even know them). Although I knew it already, it becomes a redundant reminder to me which I neglect to embrace it. But its all about wisdom, sensitivity and trust in God.

Gusto ko umiyak kagabi, empathize with them and tell them how blessed I am hearing their changed lives. Their humble heart encouraged me to push through. Just keep doing what glorifies God. Let go of the things that hinders me from growing. And from then on, it gave me strength, confidence and assurance that I should really get out from my box.

And 1 Peter 3:3-4
“Your beauty should not come from outward adornment,such as braided hair and thewearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a GENTLE and QUIET SPIRIT.”

The gentle, quiet spirit. TRUST. FAITH. HOPE. Yes, we need these in order to be strong. We need these to be prepared. We need these to have the consistent assurance that God knows best. Hearts at rest.

“Bakit ayaw mo sakanya?”

I often hear these questions from my friends most of them from work. I have to admit that instead of to be in a commitment I’d rather still choose being single. Why? Well, some personal reasons. I think some of my closest friends can understand and knows the reasons behind. (Not sharing this to be proud) most of the men I encounter from my experience and friends are torpe and should I say incapable of meeting our needs. I’m not sure if this applies to all relationships but I’m sure women has their own presumptions on each circumstances.

I realize that when the woman doesn’t like the man, the courtship has no beginning. That’s why men should have courage to ASK first if the woman will allow him to court her. Men should not just effort without clearing up the intentions, women will go equivocally on the unstated-status. So men, please don’t just make us guess if your actions are already part of your “ligaw” , STATE it!

If the man stated his intentions then women should start PRAYING. Ask God’s guidance and direction, and of course to continuously guard both of your hearts. Anyway, in my own personal opinion, I discovered that even you don’t like the guy, if the effort speaks it all, AYAW mo parin, unless nakuha ni guy yung “kiliti” mo ( Sorry for the term) then maybe the lady will RE-considers it. Am I right ladies? I’m not sure if it applies to everyone but that’s what I’ve noticed eh. That’s why the prayer is vital. It should be a breath that you can’t live without. Mahirap na yung gagawa ka ng decision that you will regret in the end.

Here’s the common conversation I had with my friend

Her: Bakit ayaw mo sakanya?
Me: Eh! Basta! (straight forward answer)
Her: Bakit? Gwapo naman siya, may trabaho naman,
Me: hmmmmm, hindi mo ko maiintindihan, hehehe, Basta its a NO….
Her: You like someone else?
Me: No, its just that we cannot connect with each other, we’re just two different people and I can’t jive into his world. Though I get his love language, pero hindi talaga eh. Strong personality ko, eh siya? Medyo emotional te! (lol)
Her: Grabe, give him time…. Malay mo db?
Me: (talagang ipinipilit ni friend) Ahh, yeah, let’s see, but its a no, when I say no, let’s stay friends… 🙂 Ok na yun para hindi kumplikado. . .

And I ended our conversation with a smile. I just can’t try to fit in to someone else’s world when that person doesn’t want to get involve in my world. Its somehow complicated but the give and take is there, understanding and getting to know is present.

My cousins and aunts they usually get surprise and looks troubled when I answer them I’m still single. But it doesn’t bother me because I’m young, I will definitely meet my prince charming at God’s perfect time. Maskinikilig ako sa mga gagawin Niya for us in the future and that our love story is worth to tell. Kaya pag tinatanong ako kung bakit wala pa akong boyfriend, naiirita ako, not to the sense of I DON’T HAVE A BOYFRIEND but to them na “why? what’s wrong? I’m still young!”. But most of the time SMILE is my reply to their redundant question and “Darating din tayo jan…”

Happy and joyfully waiting….. 🙂

Thoughts 102

Before I go to sleep tonight, I just want to share my thoughts for the whole day. Something is bothering me actually, but it doesn’t matter anymore because I have resolved it a while ago.

As I was scanning the Facebook newsfeeds, I saw a music video link of “I won’t say I’m in love, Hercules”. This Disney animated movie caught my attention when I was a child because of this half “macho” man and half greek god. Well the song paid off when the lady controlled from not telling her feelings to Hercules (Sorry, I forgot the lady’s name).

For me to control and keep emotions (Especially for the women) is such a brave and courageous act. I admit I am a very expressive and bold woman, but from experiences I learn to keep it to myself because I know in some circumstances “to not tell isn’t a loss ” . Anyway, let’s change course. . . . . . .

After doing some heavy household chores, I find time to talk to Abba Father. It was such a great feeling to finally have a great time with the One whom I longed for so many days! And so, I told Him I’m sorry that I haven’t given Him time and that I’m not putting Him first in all my agendas. I also shared how I’m doing these days, with the people around me, and also my heart.

Relationships are very important factor in life. They help you become a better person or some one you never wanted to become. Healthy or unhealthy, relationships are vital. As of now, this is my concern, how can I become someone good for my loved ones? By not pleasing them but through expressing their love language naturally. How? When? Where and why? Questions are starting to pop out, and yet answers are instantly presented.

TIME and courage . Fears. Yes, fears are holding me back to reach out to their needs. Fear of rejection. Fear of unbelief and many more. These were presented beforehand when answers were showed. Nauna yung takot bago pa dumating yung sagot But I realized that I shouldn’t be, because its a big world out there waiting for me to bare it all. Share, talk, laugh out loud, get involve and have friends for a lifetime and more! I always say no to something outside of my comfort zone but learning to get out from the box is such a huge relief. A joy! Risky? Yes, but today I am challenging myself to get out from my comfort zone and get more excited to what lies ahead. That is why one of my attitude these days is to be EXPECTANT. As I continue to put my faith and trust in the Lord, TIME AND COURAGE definitely will follow.

So what’s with the music video got to do with this? I’ll share it to my next Thoughts 103 🙂

A warmth welcome to 2013

Last year, my siblings and I went to Mall of Asia to celebrate New Year’s eve. A free watch of fireworks near Manila Bay was all worth it. Now that God has answered our prayers for a family car, we have considered to go to Mall of Asia again for the coming of 2013. People are everywhere, car parking was full and fancy restaurants are all loaded, if not loaded it’s close. Nevertheless,  since we have a long wait we found the Chowking open so we bought our dinner even in a long line.

My siblings and I ate inside the car and we had our cute small conversation with each other while eating. Then I asked them “what was your best moment for the year 2012?” My brother said, “When I was given a chance to study.” while my sister in return, “When we were complete family..” Then I hastily said “No copy paste!” then my youngest brother quickly said, “When God answered our prayer to have a car.”  I finally included mine, “When I graduated and passed my NLE board exam… then I had a work..” Then we proceeded on munching our food, suddenly my youngest brother asked us, “What was your worst moment but saw God’s hands at work?” My brother shared his, “My P.E subject was fixed.” Then my sister said, “Its a bit a long story but its kind of a friend-lover rivalry… and I was involve but thank God, it was fix!” Then I remembered mine, “When I was a private duty nurse… you know the story!” My youngest brother can’t remember his but God is always at work. Every time I see their faith, I always reflect on mine too. I often judge them by how they respond on things and how they act on each circumstances but God is so faithful to consider our faith and be so loving every day.

I admit I have a strong foundation because I came from a solid ground and that is through my family. I thank God for giving them to me. 2012 has been great! I will never forget the year where God has almost answered and heard my faith goals! He has been so faithful to me and my family. From none to abundance, and vice versa. Whatever our status we still hold on to our faith. Since 2011 I started this thanksgiving corporate prayer before the clock hits 12:00 mid night every year with my siblings. It feels great to run out of time because of many things to thank for.

After the thanksgiving prayer, the media hosted the event started a 5 minutes warm up  fireworks. So we decided to go and look for a perfect spot to enjoy it. After the 5 minutes fireworks, my siblings and I bought Mint Choco Chip ice cream! My favorite! 🙂

The countdown starts at 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, then I whispered a thankful prayer to God.. 2, 1 – Happy New Year! Welcome 2013!!! We took a picture under the fireworks and wishing mom and dad is also with us… Still praise God! 🙂

Then we immediately went inside the car, people started walking, driving their car, getting their pictures and finds their way home. The road was so free, even the expressway tollgate! Happy! HAHA.

I am more expectant of God than on what He is about to do with my life this year. To Set apart this year for Him only. 

Welcome 2013! thank You Lord for 2012 🙂

May we never fail to see God’s hand in every circumstances we have. May it seem so good and bad, God is always at work. Remember that He always loves us. God bless you all!

Joshua 3:5 “Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do amazing things among you.”

Psalm 48:14 “For this God is our God for ever and ever; he will be our guide even to the end.”

Why evening is my favorite of the day . . .

There  are many reasons why I love the evening. 

God created the heaven and the earth. He created the darkness and light in the sky. Light gives us hope. Light in the dark even gives us hope to pursue the tomorrow. I appreciate God’s creation in a deeper way when I get the opportunity to glance and gaze upon its beauty. What is the “its'” ? God’s creation. In a long tiring day whenever I get to see the night sky, I believe whenever I see the stars and moon, He tells me, “My strength is your strength, my daughter. Don’t become weary in doing good and righteous. I am here! I am your very great reward!” Those are His words that struck in my heart that keeps me going on my daily basis. Him! His very own words that makes me go from strength to strength. His face that shines every morning and still bright in the evening. His unconditional love and joy for me is unfathomable. I don’t deserve it but He still gives it wholeheartedly, without a doubt!

Here are some of my reasons:

1. As I said earlier, light gives us hope. For me, it really is and inspires me to continue the tomorrow

2. I just really love to see the stars while walking alone. Darkness doesn’t give me fear but only joy even in a lonesome night

3. I enjoy singing christian songs while walking in the evening alone

4. I get to have a 10 minutes talk with God

5.  I love the silence while grasshoppers do their own song

6.I get to see the shiny stars and say a little thanksgiving to God for its beautiful creatures.

Well those are just some of my reasons. The moments I get with God. It is indeed my favorite of the day. Still hoping to see more of God’s majestic creations through the galaxy 🙂 Yet it doesn’t stop there, God gives us so many reasons to enjoy the day even not in the evening. So enjoy the day with the Lord. Remember that God has His own reasons why such things happen. It simply because He loves us. 

 

The Majesty Himself never fails to leave me in awe reverence. The Majesty of all times and the Creator of the Universe never fail to amaze me. Looking forward for more….

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If you want to check out my other blog regarding this subject, here’s the link. Would love to hear from you too,  https://prayerworks19.wordpress.com/2012/10/05/54/

Closed doors

Every day it hast been a challenge for me. Each day I have to make sure I don’t hurt anybody . All those things matters. My friend, family and special someone matters to me. Their reaction, emotions and response on my every little actions to them. I have finally realized that people reaction towards my action is now my last concern. My first concern now is God’s opinion. He really matters so big when I get to hurt Him, it is really a BIG deal for me. I can’t have a good sleep, I always contemplate on my last action if it really pleased Him or not. That’s why there is this saying “think before you do it”, I’m still on the process of resisting what my heart tells me to do so even it means of “not today” or “now or never”. God is surely has been slapping my face back and forth. He’s been waiting for me to respond in such a way that it will only please, glorify and honor Him.

Now that I’ve come to the point of closing doors, its time for me to boost my relationship with my One and Only God. I am more expectant with God for the year 2013. I am excited because I believe God will bring me to different places and opportunities that will make me happy and make our relationship grow deeper.

2012 has been really a roller coaster ride, its been a year since I admitted that its not bringing me anywhere. Its only disobedience. Its only pride. So before the year ends, I definitely wanted to become someone God wanted me to be. More of molding and shaping of my character- building of character. Fear has been holding me back. What are those fears? I fear that I will not get to see them often if I only focus on what He wants me to do. I fear that God will take my loved ones so far away from me. I fear that no one will like me if I followed Him. But I realized God gave them to me. The people I cherish so much. I believe God is teaching me to go out from my comfort zone and I believe God is also preparing my loved ones. So for now, I have decided for the coming years, it will only be about us- God and me. Closing doors for courtship. Closing doors for any emotions that will pull me away from God. 

I’m sure when God finds me ready, He will automatically open my heart for that someone He’s been saving for me. I’m not in a hurry I believe God is also preparing that man and besides, I still have to enjoy my single hood. But I admit, I still need prayers. Prayers that will help me not give in to temptations. I need your faith that even in tough times I’ll be able to withstand it through Christ. Right now, what I know is I’m not going to entertain any man. He’ll know when to lay down if its the right time from God and if he is the one since I am devoting myself for God this coming year. So, I guess ‘do not disturb’ sign will do. God and I will have this moment. I believe God’s timing is perfect and it will come like I’ve never waited. I am really excited for this! 🙂

 

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Finally, a new heart to the One

Its been a year since my disobedience kept roaring inside my head. Now that I finally get tired of doing it all over again knowing that on the first place it only gave me so much pain and aches. I finally said, “I give up! I surrender!” (Hands off!). Doing it all in my hands is not really a good character of being a woman. Then I guess it was last week of November when I realized it has to stop or I have to stop. I admitted that there is something wrong with me that the situation has been a cycle. But thank God for faithful friends who never stopped knocking at my door telling me that it was never God’s will on the first place. So I had to stop and I must obey God. It’s not a must but I am sure God’s will for me is still the best even at first it hurts.

I can finally say that I have a new heart, everything changed! I can finally say that even without an engagement ring or a future partner, I am happy! You know why? God’s love is more than enough! The satisfaction and unconditional love that I could never ask for more is already with me, in me and for me. How could I ask God to give me more than the love He has for me when it was already endless or unending? I have desires, yes, God knows all of them but for the record now that I have settled myself down, I have set them aside. It is already my last resort. 

I know God only can start that fire again when He already set me on that season. The love of being a single person is really an advantage of knowing God more without any distraction. There are some distractions, temptations and past flashbacks, yes, but as long as I fix my eyes to the One who loved me even before I was conceive nothing nor no one could ever separate us. Even though I am surrounded with my friends who are in love with their finance’s or they have already set it. I know that one of this days God will just continue to give me that heart to someone who would confidently say to me, “you are worth the wait, my queen.” Maybe its not this time, nor my time, of course it will always be on His perfect time for both of us.

I realized that as a single person, there’s a lot of things to do in this season. Grab all the opportunity while I still have it, they say. I want to go to a place where I can really appreciate God’s creation and get merry with people I love. Spend more time with my family. Travel around the world and many more. Well, those are some of my dreams, but nothing is impossible, I still got many years to do that, I still got many months to save and I have the Jehovah-Jireh, my Provider. 

I believe God is still preparing me for something. God is molding me to someone He wanted me to become. Eventually, I’ll become what He wanted me knowing that He alone knows what’s best for me 😀 The unconditional love He has for me never stopped and with that I am grateful that even in this season, a time of being single and happy, I know that with Him I could never ask for more. The love, security, trust, hope and faith rest in Him alone – My life rest in Him alone.

Finally, a new heart to the One.

The One has captured my heart again and again. He never stops indeed to the people He loves 🙂

A hint for my Future Husband

Yes, I know! You might be wondering WHY “future husband” again? I just thought this could be a help for me and also for him, whoever that may be. Okay, so let me start on how I picture my partner 😀 I’ll just include some of the list here, the rest would be for keep.

No.1 He should be a leader! How can he lead me and our family, if he is not a leader ?! 🙂

No.2 He should be a family man! 🙂 I came from a big family and definitely I will be looking out for really a good provider and someone who would rather spend his time with me and our children than his bunch of work.

No. 3 Of course, he should be in love with God above all else.  Someone who really loves to pray (talks to God everyday). I have nothing to say because it follows everything. 😀

So what to expect if my future partner will court me? 🙂

He should be my friend already. God knows my heart, I really treat every single men as brother in Christ. As long as that man doesn’t give me a hint of “assumptions”. (Hey, don’t get me wrong! Ladies do have discernment too..) He should know what are my likes and dislikes 😀 Or types of food? HAHA. I do love some particular Japanese/Korean cuisine. Yeeeeiiiizzz… I do love them! 🙂 And he should know where to bring me if he wants to take me out for dinner 🙂 I also love flowers and chocolates, I prefer them than teddy bears. Of course, he should have laid down ALL his intentions before the DATING will occur.. 🙂

But still, before those things might happen, he should have asked me from God first then court my friends and family. He should be sure that I am the one, and I should be certain of what response if EVER he will tell or lay down his intentions. In all those things, I should be READY and PREPARED. Scary? I must not! I believe God will prepare both of us in that season in His perfect time. I am more expectant with what God will do in our lives. I may not know him yet? Or maybe he’s already out there, waiting for God’s perfect time for us. I really don’t know. 🙂 But one thing for sure, God is molding, shaping, preparing and using both of us in His kingdom and for His glory. 

And I am more excited till we get there- exchange our “I do” and unveil my veil at the altar and whisper the words “you are worth the wait, my queen..” Walk me hand in hand with full confidence after that tiring yet worth it day of our most official day as married couple in the cool wind breeze of the beach or in the garden. The day that we have been waiting for is finally here 🙂 However, that would be another first chapter in our new journey of life being one flesh and being together. I know that God, the owner of everything will provide every single needs and desires of our hearts. It’s still another challenge for both of us but I am most certain that it would be easy if we will help one another.

What’s more exciting for that moment? My dad! As he guides me and walk me in the aisle, he will hand me over to you, I am sure that will be the most emotional part for me. I love my dad and I know he is also waiting for that moment but as his first princess, to let go is the most difficult part. (HAHAHA! Speaking like I’ve been there?) God has His own ways of twisting and arranging the stories. I might not like it at first but definitely He will change my heart and teach me that His plans are still the BEST.

Above all else, the author of our love story my dear F.Husband should be our top PRIORITY and top agenda of our daily basis. With all these things, I will still go back to my God who has given me so much and trusted me with much. More over, I know that God will not meet us with holes and breaks in our hearts. He will make us both complete and whole in His presence. I am most privilege for the most awaited day of our “Till I met you” and “Hello” of our once upon a time and tell each other “you are WORTH the wait…” Enjoy WAITING! 

Dearly beloved, 

Your future wife 

P.S

—-> So, dear F.Husband, you now have the idea of where to bring me if you will ask me out for a date 🙂 

*sigh

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Secured

What do I long for? Where do I really put my trust, hope and security? Where is my faith? Can faith move mountain? Am I really loved? Is there someone praying for me? When will I get what I want? What is it that I want?

These were my confusing questions battling repeatedly in my mind. These were the questions that ALMOST shook my faith. Questions that were answered already yet I ignored and bypass them.I honestly admit that I find trust, hope and security from other people. You might ask me: Where else you must put them? Let me just share a brief testimony that there is someone else you can trust other than the people you thought could stay forever.

A friend of mine kept on reminding me, “KNOW YOUR PRIORITIES”, another friend told me“SURRENDER AND FOCUS” and finally God repeatedly told me “Do not be afraid…” “Leave your country and I will bless you..” “Stop doubting and believe..” “I give you peace..” “Be still and know that I am God..” and capital letters O-B-E-Y. Of course my friends were really instruments of God, even my Dad encouraged me through God’s word and same revelations. But really God is insisting me“Let go and let Me do my job in your life my princess”.

After all the reminders and all God’s ways, the question is still there. “Where do I really put my trust, hope and security?” So I meditate on it day and night: Where? How much time do I spend in God’s word? Do I spend more time with my family? Am I really in focus? Did I really surrender it all to God? God answered it, and I felt so ashamed and sorry for myself before God (as in if you really know what it feels) that I keep on insisting what I want to happen in my life. Nakakahiya lang talaga kay God that every devotion, He keeps on reminding me what to do, until I’ve been misled with my emotions and selfish ambitions that are not from God. I’ve been carried away with all the funs and blessings He has given me that I haven’t notice my time and energy is wasted so much to the least priorities.

But you know what? God did not give up on me! He nonstop convicted me through His word and used people close to my heart to open my eyes and heart. God’s faithfulness to our forefathers remained the same, “The Lord was with me…” Always! Not only during the good times but also in bad times. Joseph the dreamer was successful because of the Lord’s presence In His life. Jacob believed that God is with him wherever he goes. Abraham obeyed and God graciously fulfilled His covenant and promise to him. From generation to generation even before Christ, God’s love and faithfulness is upon His people. And I believe in our generation, it may seem impossible but those who believe in the Lord, nothing is impossible.

Going back, God did not give up on me, He fulfilled His promises. Even I had a heart of stone or dry heart, He continued His mission to me. He used my family and friends to slap my face back and forth like “Shekyna! Wake up! FOCUS! Look at Jesus only.” God’s sweetness may be shown in different ways, He gave me friends that I can talk to, friends who envisioned and prayed for me. I believe this is it! (God really answered these prayers).

God will not allow my impurities to conquer my whole being instead God made a way that I could talk to the people I encountered misunderstandings. He gave me confidence, willingness and boldness how I felt during those times (Soul tie, like my friend shared to me once) and try to fix things by His grace. It is really God’s perfect time for us to exchange apologies and acceptance of being new creation of God. I can really see the changes, though I am not saying that I am ALL out OKAY because I am still in process of continuous change for God’s glory. I entrusted all aspect of my life one by one to God. I invest more time with my family (siblings specifically) and update my dad with all the happenings and time for my victory group. All in all what I have concluded, it’s really a matter of obedience.

As I mentioned earlier, God did not give up on me, He gave me a second chance. Now that I have done some of His request and I am still willing to give my ALL to Him, like what He promised “I leave you peace. I give you peace – Jesus”. I can now answer the question directly, “Where do you put your trust, hope and security?” – in God alone. I am saying this because again I found what I’ve been longing for, well I had it with me, I had it in me, but I haven’t notice that I am being selfish until it made my heart dry. I realized that even you have the love of Christ in you, even you live in Christ, each of us, needs to nurture it through meditating and application on God’s word. Although I admit that this wasn’t an easy one, yung ibigay mo lahat lahat, it takes a courage to give up the people you love but since kilala ko kung kanino ko pinagkakatiwala ang buhay ng mga taong mahal ko, I believe that they are in good hands of my Abba Father and these are just some of my resolved issues that were entrusted to God and I am still willing to surrender all the things I haven’t surrendered. I am willing and open to obey God more than ever. He deserves my best and I want to give it all to Him. I put my trust, hope and security to my God alone. Right now, I am claiming my total purification and refinement. How about you? Where do you put your trust, hope and security? Check your heart again.